mixed .. as in mixes of ups-&-down-&everything

down . .

mauna tayo sa negative vibes.. as i was pondering on things that's going on in my life the past weeks or let's say, month, naisip ko lang na parang ang worthless nung moments I have lived in. It was a nightmare, having to keep everything all by myself, acting things I don't really feel and think so, never hitting up the real deaL.. it's hard on my part because naitatanong ko na lang sa sariLi ko, "ano ba ako? sino ba ako?" I may not have all the time to refLect my acts and attitude but when I had the opportunity, it's haunting me.. everything! These past few days, I am feeLing more and more "worthLess".. the feeLings sucked! Being a good friend?, a good DAUGHTER, good sister, person, CHRISTIAN? is now questionable for me.. Hanggang good na lang ba ako? Di na ba ako aabot sa better, sa best? MEDIOCRITY? Ugh.. What a word perfectLy suits me! I am hurting for what reason?! I don't know.. i reaLLy feLt like a fragiLe gLass to be broken anytime soon. The heaviness in my heart is too much it ached! P.E.A.C.E. , are you there? Chase me please and never let me go.. i am near to weariness and exhaustion. This feeling is so me a thousand years ago but why it still haunting me? am i bad? am i a bitch? i don't think so.. I thought I am a prodigaL daughter that is why.. pagod na ako, yun lang! yun lang ang gusto kong ipahiwatig the whole time through.. pagod na akong lokohin yung sarili ko pati yung mga taong nasa paligid ko. pagod na akong umintindi ng maraming bagay causing me a lot of heartache. "too much of everything is bad enough.." as the song goes and i might as well stop because dweLLing more and more about this trash in my system doesn't do me any good.

LoRd, heLp! :( T_T

YOU are seeing me, You knew the content of my heart, my deepest longing and my deepest frustrations and faiLures.. I am laying ALL of them to You, take this burden away from me.. I knew You'll do it..

middLe . .

rea's bday and as I expected, walang nangyari kc overnight shift ako sa office, gaLit siguro, I don't know . . as I told her, 'not yet ready to face any of them beacuse i still feel not really well and I can't force myself doing something my heart doesn't approved so. It will just be a waste of time and efforts. Haypee bday na lang!

the high points!

kung nasa lowest point ako ng personal kong buhay, my fantasies are at the highest.. dun na lang ako bumabawi, I may not control those bad things surrounding my life, I can always take refuge to some people who are giving me tremendous inspirations, motivations, and a goal-filled life :)

chris tiu -

Uunahin ko na siya ha? Kanina pa ako nangangating mag-type ng tungkol sa kanya eh with all the hype, glamour, and fame they were all getting because of the "championship". I may be the lastest person to post about their championship, iba pa rin sa akin 'to, version ko 'to.. yesss!! yahooo!!! kahit papano, I can proudly say na nadinig din yung a moment of pause ko to utter a prayer for their game.. truLy, the winning victory is soooo sweet I can taste it!! Chris's continued search for excellence is just so inspiring that I admire him more and more.. i simpLy "heart"♥ chris :) tama ba 'tong pinagsusulat ko at pinagsasabi? hmm.. hai naku, but it's just an admiration.. Sa uulitin, 3 guys lang sa entertainment world ang nagpapatibok ng puso ko and I don't have to mention pa kung sinu-sino yun dahil mata-tackle natin yan later on :) . . yehey, I felt so happy and alive! Grabe no, just by making kuwento about them makes me feel so aLive, ganun kalakas ng impact niLa sa akin and i truLy love as they are . . hayy.. starstruck!* ano kaya kung makita ko pa sila? hmm.. sana soon!! i will do anything talaga :) (dami side kuwentO!)



anyway, kagabi ko nalaman na they won the UAAP CHAMPIONSHIP 2008, BLUE EAGLES na naman ang king :) and yun, when I watched it sa patalastas ng SAKSI, sobrang napatiLi talaga kami !! grabe na ito.. super duper grabeng kaligayahan kc after 6 yeras, sila na naman ang hari and emotional din siyempre yung panaLo because it's Chris's last game na sa UAAP and hopefuLLy, whatever profession he'll choose, masubaybayan ko pa rin siya aLong with miLLions of girLs around the country who are patronizing and rooting for him.. waah! ang dami kong kuwnto about him! Effortless fLow of words.. Whew!!

dennis trillo -

isa pang inspiration ko kc he's such a wonderfuL person talaga, di ko man siya kiLaLa personally but I know he is a person na may depth yung pagkatao, may sense yung buhay and will never stop amazing you kasi he is a man of few words, that is true, and whenever he said words, talagang may malalaman kang bago sa kanya . . Ganun siya ka-interesting for me and I am always here along with his other fans aLthough I know na nabawasan pero the best thing now is that bumabangon siya, accepting the painful judgment of bitter people about his mistakes. At least kung ano man yung mga pinagdaanan niya, tao niyang hinarap lahat even without the heLp of any influentional person unLike the others" Slowly but sureLy, he is picking up all the pieces in his career.. and I beLieve, makakaya niya yun.. i Love dennis ho :) thank you din sa gma for giving him again the opportunity of creating himseLf again, for the trust and support.. da best kayo!!



my home network -

i am so proud of the shows lined-up for late 2008 up to the first quarter of 2009. Quality shows talaga and sobrang nakaka-proud kasi talaga yung developments ng aking home network :) plus the overwheLming support of my feLLow kapuso.. sabi pa nga nung isa sarap taLagang maging kapuso kasi dito, may puso tapos waLang bitter, at humbLe pa :) todo na uLi ito! what an interesting topic! Grabe, nakakalula talaga as in ang mga bagong expLosives dito. . Heart is really lucky to have changed network because of all those opportunities uLit na napupunta sa kanya.. way to go, girL! :)

gLaiza -

bloghopping ako kanina (uLi) grabe.. i stumbLed upon gLaiza's muLtiply account and I am amaze (na naman?!) sa depth ng pagsuLat niya . . as in ang lalim, di mo maaarok! no wonder, she's a composer herseLf.. gaLing! ang daming taLent :) she's a kapuso!♥

superbianca -

anyways, we miss Bi so much.. Sa'n na kaya siya? I hope and pray na she's ok and she'LL never stop sharing her thoughts because she's an amazing person, and an inspiring one.. marami pa siyang mari-reach out.. i Love her!

- quotes -

"the unexamined life is not worth living”.. - it's from Chris :) kuha ko dun sa isang super fan . .

"The song of my life is Couldn't Ask For More by Edwin McCain. (Kinanta niya to nung bday niya sa SOP kaya ko naging super favorite :) -tine)
"The song speaks for itself at sinasabing kahit ano ang nangyari sa buhay at career ko, masuwerte pa rin ako sa dami ng blessings. One time, nagmumuni-muni ako at narinig ko siya at bumagay sa sitwasyon ko." - Dennis

all the best ay nandito sa the best station : gma - from a feLLow kapuso senior60 . .

we all ROCK! tana na ang senti . . dito tayo sa hindi corny!

DLSU-ATENENO cLash

yehey, nanaLo ang Blue Eagles and one win to go, CHAMPION na :) gaLing galing! goodLuck sa game! Go CHRIS! Dami mong fans, gosh! :p

PCP Midyear Convention . .

na-busy kami dahiL dito :)

survey kayo dyan!

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
- Electric bill! At water bill !!

2. Have you ever gotten drunk and danced on a bar?
- Nope and I don’t have any plans of doing it in the future ..

3. Name of your first grade teacher?
- Mrs. Phoebe Edep . . astig ko! :)

4. What are you doing right now?
- Naglalaro sa pc then bloghopping.

5. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
- Dentist, lawyer, doctor, ramp model, beauty queen :)

6. How many colleges did you attend?
- Only one, sa STI proud to be :)

7. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you where would you go?
- Amanpulo or Bohol or Davao

8. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
- Another long hours of working, update on I.T.A.L.Y.

9. Last thought before going to sleep last night?
- Nakalimutan ko na!

10. Do you bite your nails?
- Minsan, pag wala akong magawa.

11. Are you a jealous person?
- Medyo pero pag sinasadya, wala akong pak’s.

12. Are you allergic to anything?
- Bagoong, chicken, any sea foods which are my favorite pa :(

13. What movie, if any, have made you cry?
- Napakarami. Mas naiiyak ako sa mga movies kesa sa problema ng totoong buhay!
But just to answer this question, eto ang top 3 na mala-gripo kong pag-iyak :)
1. Bahay Kubo
2. Artificial Beauty
3. Abakada … Ina

14. What is your favorite simple ice-cream flavor?
- Mango and Chocolate

15. Whose car were you in last?
- Boss.

16. What would you rather be doing right now?
- Sleeping (todong relaxation!)

17. What song lyrics, if any, are stuck in your head at the moment?
- “When I see your smile, Tears roll down my face.
I can't replace. And now that I'm stronger, I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.

Seasons are changing, And waves are crashing,
And stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter, I can show you I'll be the one”

18. What will you dress up as for Christmas?
- Something thick and fit leggings :)

19. What is your favorite TV show?
- Documentaries ng GMA News and Current Affairs, Variety shows na din like SOP, and as of now Ako si Kim Sam Soon tsaka SURVIVOR PHILIPPINES!

20. Do you get along better with the same or opposite sex?
- Kahit sino lang basta cool and edgy at nakaka-relate sa mundo ko.

21. Can others make you cry easily?
- Sa mga interviews, sa mga napapanood ko pero yung mga tao lang sa paligid ko, I don’t give a damn! :) heehee..

22. Who was the last person to piss you off?
- Yung mga neighborhood na FLIRT *

23. Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
- Oo especially sa mga formal essays and writings.

24. Do you pay attention to calories on the back of packages?
- Minsan, pero pag masyadong masarap, wa me care!

25. If you could be any type of fruit, what would you be?
- Apple – maliban sa favorite ko siya, I can also help doctors keep away from anyone :)

26. How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
- 10 hrs. kaya lang parang over kaya mga 5-7 na lang

27. When was the last time you slept on the floor?
- Limot ko na . .

28. Have you ever been attracted to someone, but not physically?
- Ewan! Nakalimutan ko na din.

29. Do you like traveling?
- SOBRA!! Tinanong pa.. my feet is aching for more travel!!!

30. Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos?
- No..No.. No.. as in!

31. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
- Di ko pinangarap, sakit kaya! Although meron na ‘ko sa earlobes.

32. Which do you make: dreams or plans?
- Both – mahilig ako magdream pero napa-plan din naman ako ng future ko.

33. Can you speak any languages other than English?
- Filipino.

34. What movies do you know every line to?
- Bahay Kubo, Filipinas tsaka Mano Po I, What a Girl Wants

35. Would you rather take the picture or be in it?
- Hmm.. Gusto ko ring magtake esp. those spectacular things na ang sarap i-capture pero maganda din siyempre magpa-picture, ako yung subject tapos nilagyan ng so much art and elegance yung pag-shot. Weeh! :)

36. Do you wear flip-flops?
- Oo naman. I love it! So comfy.

37. . If you could eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
- Spaghetti na masarappp!

38. What's the sweetest thing someone has done for you?
- Ewan ko ba.. Mahirap pumili kasi ang dami na :) aruy!

** yohoo! Championship na as if this moment ng UAAP. It's a clash between Ateneo Blue Eagles and La Salle Green Archers. One big fight!! Go Chris Tiu! Good luck sa game :)

Music and your Life!

Survey with your music player...
- from Chynna! :)

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.

Plus, check the lyrics and see how funny it can either make sense as an answer to the question or be completely off-guard.=)

Akin to:

What does next year have in store for me?
HOLD ON by Shamrock
-I will hold on to what? Siguro, I’ll just hold on na lang dun sa mga bagay na worth keeping and fighting for. Yung mga pangit, iiwanan ko na for this year. What a wonderful year to come! :)

What does your love life look like?
I NEVER KNEW LOVE by Lovi Poe
-As of now talaga I never knew what love na ba. what it’s like kasi di pa dun yung focus ko eh, nasa marriage na! hehe.. Joke!

What do I say when life gets hard?
BLEEDING LOVE by Leona Lewis
-Wow.. hmm.. how do I interpret this, yes it’s also me because when things gets hard for me, I just let my heart bleed and be hurt but the moment I get up, I’ll stop the bleeding then continue fighting for my beautiful life :)

What do I think of when I get up in the morning?
AND I AM TELLING I’M NOT GOING by Regine Velasquez
-I always say to myself that I am not going anywhere but only the best places here on earth, I will also won’t go to any destruction in my life.

What song will I dance to at my wedding?
AT THE BEGINNING by Richard Marx & Donna Lewis
-life is a road and I wanna keep going, love is a river I wanna keep flowing . . yezz! Definitely, I know wedding is only the beginning and I want to keep it going until I die :)

What do you want to do for your career?
DO YOU KNOW WHERE YOU’RE GOING TO? by Mariah Carey
-Oo nga naman, do I really know where am I going to? Hehe.. ewan ko ba dito sa buhay kong ito! :)

Your favorite saying?
IN MY LIFE by Ariel Rivera
-I really wish I can experience that saying/song in my life someday.

Favorite place?
FOR THE FIRST TIME by Jed Madela
Puro love song napi-pick up ko! Hayz.. Siguro sa title na lang ako magbi-base, i love places which i saw/experience for the first time that are really awesome and peaceful. Mga ganung tipo.. ang labo! :)

What do you think of your parents?
I’LL GROW OLD WITH YOU by Adam Sandler
Yes, I really, really wanna grow old with them, to share all the things that’s happening to me. Sobrang idealistic! Weeh . .

Where would you go on a first date?
OVERJOYED by Paolo Santos
-Sure! Anywhere basta overjoyed ako tsaka overLOVED ok na ok ako :)

Drug of choice?
WITHOUT YOU by Mariah Carey
-Sino naman kayo yung YOU na yun na I can’t live without? Drugs talaga! hehe

Describe yourself.
BIYAHE TAYO by All Star Artists
-Yes! It is so me!! Biyahe lang ng biyahe, sige lang ng sige! Hehe.. I love every Filipino culture and famous vacation spots and I am wishing so badly to also go there and have some F-U-N!

What is the thing I like doing most?
GO THE DISTANCE by Michael Bolton
-I have often dreamed of a far-off land.. Yes, I love dreaming of far away places I would like to go through but I know darating din ako diyan. I will go all the distance of my life and find my true self.. whether unknown or terrifying, I will still go to grab the best things life can offer.

What is my state of mind like at the moment?
LET’S GET LOUD by jLo
-I wanna be loud and succumb myself to great music all my life! Weeh.. :)

How will I die?
BREAK IT TO ME GENTLY by Mark Bautista
-Yes, I want this thing to happen super gently na di ko na maramdaman pa yung any pain.

The song that will be played at your funeral?
CLUMSY by Fergie
-Ay clumsy kaya namatay? Wag ganun! Pangit.. Di ko matanggap :(

The song you'll put as the subject?
I KNOW by Yasmien Kurdi
-I don’t know ano ibig sabihin ng question! :) hehe

The song that describes my friendships?
STEEP by Nina
I don’t know how to describe this “thing” eh! It’s a rollercoaster relationship, so tiring and dizzying . .

The song that describes my future marriage?
I’LL BE by Edward McCain
-weeh! What a chilling love song! According to them, it’s one of the best, greatest love song ever written. I do agree, ang sweet-sweet ng sumulat! :) “I’ll be your crying shoulder, I’ll be your love suicide. I’ll be better when I’m older..” Db nakakataba ng puso pag ikaw inawitan ng special someone mo nito?
♥ lovestruck!*

The song that describes my future children?
SO SICK by Ne-yo
-Wag naman sana silang ma- so sick of love songs kasi kahit papano eh hilig ng nanay nila yan :) Wag naman negative! Shucks.. hehe

The song that describes what this summer will be like?
FLOWERS by Sweet Female Attitude
-Flowers in the pouring rain? Summer nga eh! Hmm..

The song that describes what people think of me?
ALAPAAP by Eraserheads
-What?? Bahala sila, siguro nga minsan mapapansin nilang may pagka-HIGH ako minsan.. Weeh :)

The song that describes how I will do in school?
APOLOGIZE by One Republic Ft. Timbaland
-Ay, apologize for the low grades? Hehe..

The song that describes how nice of a career I'll have?
UNDERNEATH YOUR CLOTHES by Shakira
-Mas whhaatt??? I don’t want to think about the lyrics.. Haha

The song that describes my personality?
KAPAG AKO ANG NAGMAHAL by Jolina Magdangal
-Wow.. napaka-cheesy naman! Kapag ako ang nagmahal umiyak man ako.. Chuva! Hmmp.

The song that describes my weakness?
TURN OFF THE LIGHT by Nelly Furtado
-Yes, talagang di ako makatulog pag di turned off ang light :) grabe kaliteral!

The song that describes my strengths?
JUST A SMILE by Barbie Almalbis
-Sometime, whenever I am facing some major trouble or challenges, I am trying my best to smile para mawala yung pressures o kung di man at least mabawasan tsaka mas lumalakas loob ko pag there are so many people who are smiling at me. It’s a real strength.

Happy Anniversary to my Blogspot! :)

OPTIONS.. CHOICES..

All of us have options..everyday, we are faced by tremendous choices in life.. Some are confusing, others helpful but sometimes choices in life really affects us in ways we can never imagine..



In ceLebration of my 1st anniversary here in bLogger, i am posting something speciaL for me. It's my lists of options that tops my interest. :)

Here we go!

three names you go by:
1. tintin
2. Christine
3. Margaritte

three physical things you like about yourself:
1. eyes
2. waist
3. arms

three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. legs
2. eLbow
3. knees

three parts of your heritage:
1. filipino
2. filipino
3. ..nothing more!

three things that scare you:
1. being away from my loved ones
2. losing one of my senses
3. natural calamities

three of your everyday essentials:
1. rice
2. water
3. facial wash & cream

three of your favorite musical bands:
1. Rivermaya
2. Eraserheads
3. Parokya ni Edgar

three of your favorite solo artists:
1. Rihanna
2. Jennylyn Mercado
3. Regine Velasquez

three of your favorite songs this week:
1. "ebony & ivory" by Paul McCartney & Stevie Wonder
2. "take a bow" by rihanna
3. "making love out of nothing at all" by air supply
* pasingit! :)
- "your guardian angel" by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

three things you want in a relationship:
1. openness
2. affection
3. initiative to make each other so happy

three lies and truths in no particular order:

lies:
1. time heaLs all wounds, actually, LOVE does :).
2. At the end of the rainbow, you'll find a pot of gold.
3. May nuno sa punso :) toinx..

truth:
1. love is a many splendor things
2. the truth shall set you free.
3. GoD is good all the time.

three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes!
2. nose
3. body :)

three of your favorite hobbies:
1. watching movies/TV
2. surfing the net
3. listening to music

three things you want to do really badly now:
1. travel
2. walk on the beach
3. eat a good, good meal and sleep ng bonggang-bongga!

three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. graphic designer
2. to belong in a magazine team
3. become editor




three places you want to go on vacation:
1. amanpulo :)
2. tagaytay
3. bohol

three kid's names you like:
1. Keziah Nicole
2. Hannah Zephaniah
3. Kyla Christine
--my pamangkins..

three things you want to do before you die:
1. Buy a house for my daddy & mommy
2. vacation at any beautiful resort in the Philippines.
3. ma-diyaryo at ma-feature sa mga magazines most esp. sa Guiness.. hehe!:)
(medyo vague, pero dream ko yun!)

three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. my nails are short and unshaped.
2. i sit like a man
3. i hate crying

three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. i love the color pink.
2. i get easily kilig in watching romantic movies.
3. i daydream a lot about my future.

three famous personalities I look up to:
1. rico blanco
2. bianca gonzalez
3. paolo bediones

three of my favorite persons:
1. michael v.
2. paolo contis
3. eugene domingo


three local celeb crushes:
1. dennis trillo
2. chris tiu
3. rico blanco

things i vow to do in a month:
3. Eat a hearty yet heaLthy meaLs!
2. arrange my tithes :( , my prayer life, my self :(
1. magpahinga at makatulog ng 10 hrs. !

movies i recently saw that i absolutely loved:
3. moments of love (ganda ng twist ng story! sobrang magical.. hehe!)
2. Sweet November (medyo nakakalungkot yung story pero inspiring! )
1. my sassy girl (beautiful korean love story na sobrang tearful!..)

things that made me happy over the weekend:
3. Salon visit :)
2. Homecoming of te jesieL and the "kuwentuhan" that came along with it :)
1. Watching Chris Tiu on t.v. !!

favorite daydreams of the moment:
3. belonging to a creative team in t.v. (nice!_)
2. travel lang ng travel, makarating sa mga nice beaches :)
1. getting a closet full of beautiful clothes & shoes i love.

things i miss doing:
3. matulog at magkulong sa kumot while heavy rain pours out loud ! :( waah!
2. having a healthy lifestyle that includes adequate sleep, healthy meals, and good activities.
1. summer youth camping in church

tOp three pet peeves
people i dont like:
1. mukhang pera
2. maarte
3. papansin

manners of people i don't like in random order:
sa simbahan:
1. people texting
2. mga batang umiiyak at maiingay (nakakasira ng solemnity)
3. mga natutulog.. toinx :)

sa party GIRLS:
1. wearing dress that they're not comfortable with.
2. too much applied make-up. (cLown!)
3. loud and tactless talk.

sa party BOYS:
1. smoking
2. feeling gwapo
3. those who doesn’t have enough confidence

public vehicles:
1. people smoking
2. mababaho :(
3. sleeping.. in your shoulders pa mandin!

sa house:
1. hindi nagliligpit ng higaan
2. hindi naghuhugas ng pinagkainan
3. hindi marunong magluto at magsaing

sa school:
1. students not wearing proper uniform
2. girls with too short skirt
3. boys wearing rubber shoes.

3 sayings I strongly believe:
1. "Ang Kabataan ang Pag-asa ng Bayan" - Jose Rizal . .
2. "Do not do unto others what you don't want others do unto you" - golden rule
3. "For with God nothing shall be IMPOSSIBLE" - Luke 1:37

-- now it's your turn, anong mai-se-share mo? :)

- some facts about me, if there is some :)

* I love writing, as much as I love music, arts, and photography .. no wonder about it

* I love my family, ‘doing all of these for them

* I love dressing up, it makes me feel good

* I’m still innocent about a LOT of things

* Fan ako ng Rivermaya since birth, I love RICO .. Arguably not

* Ayoko ng mga plastik! Tao man o bagay

* Tamad akong magbasa ng mga text na di naman importante

* Mahal ko ang bayan ko, Pilipinas :) proud ako sa lahi ko

* Tamad akong magbasa, maliban na lang kung masyadong interesting

* I love traveling! Really..

* Minsan, nangarap ako, yung iba natupad, yung iba, tutuparin ko pa lang, yung iba, imposible na sigurong matupad pa.

* Sometimes I felt like I’m already an adult but somehow, childish pa rin ako in so many things and so many ways

* I love bags, headbands, and skirts.. pero wala nang skirt ngayon, bawal na :(

* I strongly believe in the saying that: “Do not do unto others what you don’t want others do unto you.” At isinasabuhay ko yun, hanggang ngayon

* Idealistic ako, (DATI). Di ko na alam kung saan napunta yung idealism na yun

* I hate pimples, anything na nakakasama ng kalooban

* I despise LAMOK, dahil sa kanila, na-confine ako ng ospital ng matagal at first time ko yun!

* Gusto ko si Mariah, kahit pangit ugali niya. Paborito ko mga kanta niya

* I’m not a big fan of E-heads pero love siya ng mga favorite persons ko in the Entertainment field kaya love ko na din :) I love their songs, anyway

* I love Bianca Gonzalez’s smart and witty personality

* I love to read love stories, OPM love songs, and watch love story in Filipino :)

* Gusto ko rin siyempre ng mga nakakatawa, stress fighter yun

* Ayokong ma-stress pero di ko maiwasan eh! Sensitive kasi ako masyado

* Change is really permanent for me esp. towards my attitude, my likes and dislikes

* I kept a diary since I was in Grade-5 pero nagstop at na-continue ko when I was in 1st year until my 1st year in College to express my self and to unleash the inner artistic spirit in me kaya lang College life is too hard to handle. Nahirapan akong mag-adjust so I stopped writing but I can tell it’s a hell living without me being able to jot down what’s happening.. waah!

* Until I discovered blogspot :) Nagkaroon uli ako ng outlet or extension of me but this time, in the power of www. Wider range and bigger extension

* My top three ceLeb crushes are: Dennis, Rico, and Chris. They all have different personalities but just the same, malaki ang naging impluensiya nila sa buhay ko. Lahat sila :)

* Si Bianca, Regine, at Jennylyn Lang ang ina-idoLize ko at lahat din sila may impluwensiya sa akin esp. in my growing up years

* I love my individuality

* I respect my self so MUCH.

* I love watching movies but I hate it whenever I am seeing pirated copies of our local flicks. It’s disgusting!



* Ironic, I hate piracy but I am so eager to download my favorite songs for free! Hmm..

* I wish may sinehan na dito para maka-suporta ako sa ating local entertainment industry ..

* I despise people na hindi makabayan

* And I love people esp. young people who are so nationalistic and boasting their culture and race :)

* Paborito ko din ang kumain

* I love my network :)

* Mahilig akong magsalita at i-express ang sarili kong opinion and beliefs although dati di ko ito ginagawa

* I don’t like flirt and pa-cute.. Mapa-boy man o girl

* Sentimental ako masyado

* I was in love at an early age, got my heart broken when I entered college but it only made me real stronger and a fighter. Maraming mabuting naidulot ang experience na ito. :) I am fine already

* Pangarap kong magkabahay

* Masyado kong mahal ang sarili ko to the point na I won’t let anyone step up on me and treat me foul nor bad

* I love schooling, journalism (mass communication) for that matter

* Ayoko ng butong pakwan. Wala akong patience to munch on it

* I love watery fruits, very healthy and refreshing :)

* I still strongly believe in the power and magic of love

* Pangarap kong mabalikan uli lahat ng childhood memories ko. Masaya yun na may lungkot.

* I love perfumes like BLUE for HER, and Ellipse (Pixie), these scents became me throughout the years

* I love youtube. Almost everybody does

* I also love my high school memories

* I am ambitious.

* I have many online accounts but friendster, ymail, blogspot are my only active accounts

* I love photoshop, there’s so much more to learn and explore!

* I love life and so passionate about it :)

* Pangarap ko ang DigiCam. Aching for spectacular photos to shoot at

* 214 – I wish that was written and sung for me :)

* I am friendly enough to those I like but snob to people I don’t like that much

* Love surfing the net!

* I love "pambatang computer games" :)

* I want to be happy and contented in my life

* I love my Lord God although di masyadong pahalata but I do.

- there is so much more to tell.. and so much of time to express all of them freely :)

huwhatt's happening ?!

It's the first day of September, the start of the long-time celebration of Christmas here in our country, Philippines. Malamig na naman ang simoy ng hangin at hmmm.. masaya na naman yung atmosphere because of "hanging habagat" :) . . nakakatuwalang alalahanin uLi yung past Christmases ko in our home with the whoLe family na andun and it's truly enjoyable and feastive .. it's a wonderful time to remember the birth of our Savior .. :) makauwi kaya ako sa amin this Christmas? I'm really, really hoping so..



Anyway, last Saturday di ako pumasok, and prior to that, nung gabi nanood kami ng Mr/Ms STI at umaga na kami nakauwi at nag-enjoy din naman ako . . I have to have that night out because sobra yung pressure sa house and I can't stand it all so it's a good break for me (aLthough tiring na din) hehe.. Kinaumagahan, umuLan so ang sarap ng tuLog ko to the point na di na ako makabangon ng higaan because my gosh! Sumama pakiramdam ko (feeLing ko Lang!) :p so nagpaalam ako agad na di ako makakapasok but I refrain myself to think of anything na makakapa-guiLty sa akin because I truLy deserved that break from everything db? It's been so long na din naman since I rest Lang sa maghapon, doing nothing but to rest and eat, watch TV .. yun Lang, basta aLthough upon waking up, inabot ako ng seLf-pity feeLing ko so kung ano-anong negativity yung pumasok sa isip ko buti na Lang na-revive ko yung sariLi ko from thinking any "bad" things and peopLe .. i don't wanna eLaborate on that issue kc nakakababa ng sariLi.. cheap! :p

i had another artwork na natapos last Friday Lang and natuwa talaga ako sa naging outcome.. It's my gift for myseLf, a simpLy reminder na I can aLways get up from the fall and stand up again and face all of them .. and all of those things na nakakasira ng system ko . . aLso, it's a way of making me love myseLf even more and never Letting other people to give me bad vibes because it's not worth my time nor my attention .. :)

Let's look at it ..

through these quotes talagang medyo nai-share ko na yung pagkatao ko because it refLects my thoughts, my ideas, as weLL as the phase in my Life that I am now living up.. sana inspiring din! :) kc ako tunay na na-inspire sa mga ito .. what a breather in my daiLy routine!

my dreams . .

Nung Saturday, napanood ko na pumunta sina LT sa Holy Land for a spirituaL heaLing at nainggit ako :) . . weeh! Eh kc nga db pangarap ko yun? hayy . . How i wish! (wish what?) hehe . . pero sana nga talaga maka-dalaw din ako dun at makaranas ng napakatinding spirituAL heaLing because i badLy needed that .. hmm.

music . . and concerts ..

I'm enjoying to hear talaga every Rihanna songs .. May bago siya ngayon na #1 na sa chart, yung take a bow .. magandang sabayan, nakakatuwa pa yung message :) top favorite ko siya since last week pa .. enjoy lang! tapos yung "our song" ni Taylor Swift at isa pang most favorite, "one step at a time" ni Jordin Sparks .. puro girLy songs! :) nahihiLig ako sa mga ganung genre nowadays..

well, isang nakakaLungkot na baLita at nakakapanghinayang na din.. At the middle of Eheads Reunion concert, inatake na naman si Ely Buendia and it's so sad! Shucks, inabot daw ng 60,000 yung naki-party and incLuded dun si superbianca :) who is a super fan din taLaga ng E-heads.. ako kc, nakikiLungkot Lang but I'm not reaLLy a fan.. di ko na siLa naabutan masyado eh! aLthough yung mga kuya's ko ay fan taLaga ng "the Beatles of the PhiLs." o db, sosyaL? hmm.. naLaman ko Lang yan sa wikipedia.. hehe! mas fan ako ng Rivermaya (d best!) Rico Blanco .. wohoo! :)

Kung malungkot man yun, may masaya din naman.. Very successfuL yung concert na Let's Celebrate sa Araneta.. Napanood namin kagabi at maganda, very entertaining.. yun Lang :) magagaLing ang mga kapuso .. gwapo pa! hehe . .

I did have fun writing this post and kahit papa'no nabawasan yung burdens and excessive grudges that I am deaLing with.. Gaya nga ng sinabi ko, "this will soon pass" so

smiLe lang tayo paLagi :)