.. i just felt the need to share this to you kasi as of this moment i am dealing with a very personal struggle AGAIN, a painful journey of self-discovery and analyzation. masyado ko kasing ginagawang complicated ang buhay ko but in fact, simple lang naman talaga ang kailangan ko eh! church.. but i have to share that i am truly burdened and hurt and devastated and depressed and i need my own piece of peace.. i have to share this because it somehow made and broke me.

Father's Love Letter

An Intimate Message From God To You.

My Child,

You may not know me,

but I know everything about you.

Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.

Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.

Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.

Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.

Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.

Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring.

Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived.

Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation.

Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake,

for all your days are written in my book.

Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth

and where you would live.

Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.

Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb.

Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born.

Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented

by those who don't know me.

John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry,

but am the complete expression of love.

1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.

1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father.

1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.

Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father.

Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.

James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.

Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.

Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love.

Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless

as the sand on the seashore.

Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.

Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you.

Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession.

Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish youwith all my heart and all my soul.

Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.

Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me.

Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart.

Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires.

Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine.

Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager.

2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles.

2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you.

Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb,

I have carried you close to my heart.

Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes.

Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain

you have suffered on this earth.

Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you

even as I love my son, Jesus.

John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.

John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.

Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you.

Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.

2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.

2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you.

1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved

that I might gain your love.

Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me.

1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again.

Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party

heaven has ever seen.

Luke 15:7

I have always been Father,

and will always be Father.

Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is..

Will you be my child?

John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you.

Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad

Almighty God

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

some questions from movies that left mark in my heart..

this was inspired from bianca's entry so I'll try my very best to give some of my explanations..

since it's a holy week vacation, i had so much time watching movies and reading books and so much fun i had, too! i loved it!truly, what bianca said as to why she loves movies is because of it's power to stir too strong emotions in you that you can't help but to reflect some of its truths in your personal lives.

(ps: i'm currently listening to "bella's lullaby" i love it!! so soothing and very relaxing :p )

1 twilight.

haha! now, more than ever, i've already watched it and it's sort of fun to watch too! :)

Q "will there be someone out there who will love me just like how much edward loves bella?"

and in return,

Q "will i ever love someone with the same intensity of loving edward as bella does?"

Q "when you can live forever, what would you live for?"

A am i willing to spend the rest of my life and my after life for the one i love? am i even willing to give up my soul? well, my answer, being a Christian who believes in GoD's sovereignity, i'm not going to give up my soul and lose GoD and never will just for the sake of my loved one because the Bible said clearly "Love GoD above anything else in this world".. He's the only truth anyone will ever know, and will ever have..

R 4****. i love the whole cast, the story, and the place (cinematography) but having read the book, nakulangan ako sa execution sa movie kasi parang ang haba-haba ng book tapos pagdating sa movie yun lang yung na-capture. tsaka konti lang yung sweet or kilig moments nila bella at edward pero siguro dahil na rin sa time duration kaya dapat i-chop ng husto yung story.. still, it's a feel good movie you'll anitcipate for more!

2 my sassy girl. (korean film)

i've watched this movie a couple of times and the first time i did, there's some portion where i'm laughing and at the same time crying.. :p

Q "is there really someone who is willing to accept you for what you are wholeheartedly?"

A "my answer would be after 5-8 years when i already (or not) found that 'someone'. :)

R 4****. it reminded me that even after and during the storms, there will always be something to smile and hope about, a rainbow at the end.. during your broken heart/journey in life, you will discover something about yourself that will matter for your surviving towards life.

3 magnifico.

Q "why does being kind/good can sometimes be so tiring and hard to do?" (at least for me! :p)

A maybe because i'm not gifted with a good heart. Agh! sometimes i wanna be kind, really, pero parang ang hirap lang minsan gumawa ng kabutihan pero bakit si magnifico, ang buti-buti? kasi nga magnifico siya! :p

R 5*****. i love it! i love it! so much tears had shed off my eyes because of this movie.. at first it has a very slow pacing but come the climax time, hinding-hindi mo na mapipigilan ang luha mo. promise!! spectacular cast and director, maryo j. delos reyes and of course, magnifico himself, jiro manio.. galing-galing! perfect example of the saying "everytime you do good, the world changes"

and let me say this again.

magtiwala na lang kasi tayo sa goodness!

i realized..

-this is what i really love about internet, reading the thoughts freely of so many different people, ordinary/extraordinary, famous/almost famous.. and gradually as you read all of their thoughts, you learn from them, and while appreciating the inner artist in these people (blogger), you started to appreciate life even more..

-that truly, no one can make you feel inferior without your consent.. so, heads up and strong, girl! we are all one-of-a-kind. a mantra we all have to believe and keep on sticking to!

-i really love blogging because i have the power to shout out to the world even without making a noise and it's exhilirating! fabulous way of living!

-one more girl power thing: you don't have to change yourself or your personality just for the one you love to the point of being "not so sure about who you are".. let him see you and eventually love you as you are but enjoying still your own you!

- haven't open my friendster account for 6 days because of my trying to learn new things in HTML.

-i love being a teen! and i love candy!, and it's my new hobby! :)

here's my cute avatar :) yeah!!!

my candy PROFILE!!, you know, i can easily show my self with these thoughful questions and musings.. :)

What is a perfect day for you?
Sharing fun moments with my family and friends..

Which fictional character from a movie, book, video game, or TV show do you most identify with?
Isabella Marie Swan ?!! :)

Which famous person, living or deceased, do you most admire?
Bianca Gonzalez, Rico Blanco, Chris Tiu, Dennis Trillo :)

What do you like most about yourself?
My ability to adapt well in any environment I'm in, not forcing my self to fit in because I always believe anyone can have the power to stand out in his/her own.. and also being curious to everything I'm interested in and the inner drive to learn new things and grasp all new, exciting opportunities that will come in my way.. :)

What do you like most about other people?
Sharing their interesting talents in any way they know how and doing something they are most passionate about, and in the end, being happy with their own meaningful lives..

If you could travel to any place in the world, where would you go?
I would say first, KOREA then hopefuly, PARIS :)

Which word or expression do you use most often?
OMG! , gosh!, dugh?!! :)

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I really wanna be athletic and fit because I'm too lazy to work out and even move my butt out! And also I wanna minimize my being lanky and klutzy! :)

If you could be reborn as a person or thing, what or who would it be?
I really wanna be a Princess in London :) hehe..

What object do you consider your most prized possession?
My magazines, my headbands, my diaries, my artworks :)

What is the quality you like most in boys?
The ability to easily understand technical talks, and gadget related topics.

What do you want to be when you grow up?
It's a secret and is a big NO in my personality but honestly I wanna be a "beauty queen" when I was growing up. :)

What's your motto in life?
All things work together for good to those who love GoD and to those who are called according to His purpose..

Top 5 Favorite Food/Restaurants
Burger, Spaghetti / Jollibee, Halo Halo / Chowking :), Grilled Pusit / Balinsasayaw, Shrimp!!

Top 5 Favorite Books
TWILIGHT and its sequels

Top 5 Favorite Male Celebs
Dennis Trillo, Rico Blanco, Chris Tiu, Oliver James, Robert Pattinson! :)

Top 5 Favorite Female Celebs
Bianca Gonzalez, Regine Velasquez, Jennylyn Mercado, Leighton Meester, Kristen Stewart :)

Top 5 Favorite Movies
• What a girl wants • Parent Trap • A walk in the clouds • Cutting Edge • Filipinas

Top 5 Favorite Songs
Greatest Story Ever Told (Oliver James), Goodbye (Juana), 214, Your Universe (Rico Blanco), Somewhere Out There (Hillary Duff)

Top 5 Favorite TV shows
Family Feud, SOP, I-Witness, Survivor, Full House!

Top 5 Favorite Bands/Singers
Beyonce, Britney, Rihanna, Rico Blanco, Regine Velasquez

Top 5 Favorite Fashion Items
Head Bands, Bracelets (Bangles), Shoes (cute pumps!), Comfy Tees, Skinny Jeans

Top 5 Favorite Beauty Items
Lightening Cream, Facial Wash,Lip Gloss, Moisturizer, Pressed Powder

Top 5 Favorite Gadgets
Personal Computer, Cellphone, Ipod, Camera, DVD

blog under construction..

Christine's FIRSTS!..

found this at Chynna's site at na-engganyo naman akong gayahin because i always loved answering surveys and the like kahit di ako na-tag.. :) nag-eenjoy talaga ako sa pagsagot sa ganitong quizzes.. sa makakabasa, you are officially tagged. :)

enjoy!!

FIRSTS!

1. Who was your FIRST prom date?
That’s one of the saddest part of my high school life, not being able to experience prom :’(

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
I’ve never been in love :) haha! My reason? Because I believe love is forever :) aww..

3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?
Brandy. Emperador! Haha! Di ko talaga na-enjoy yun!

4. What was your FIRST job?

SPES. I don’t know the meaning but it’s something about summer job and student privilege work.

5. What was your FIRST car?

Still a dream.. a very vague dream. :)

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
My friend’s boyfriend, Charlee.. He said good morning to me at 12:56 AM. Adik!

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
As in I forgot who it was! :) terrible ang pagiging forgetful ko talaga! Hehe..

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
Ms. Phoebe Edep. She’s kind to me, and quite my favorite. I even gifted her something when I finished Grade-I :)

9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
I never experienced that yet. :( but I know I will, someday!

10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
Ermie Lusoc, my classmate from Grade II-IV but since I transferred to another school when I turned Grade V, we haven’t seen each other since then and we don’t have any communications right now.

11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
I cannot remember it also.

12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
My sister, because we’re the only ones left in the house.

13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
A family friend, I was a bridesmaid and my first time to actually attend and participate in a wedding.

14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
I prayed, thanked GoD for everything then took a bath.

15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
I can’t remember but I think I watched Shamrock and Rocksteddy then.

16. What was the FIRST record/tape/CD you bought?
Bitney Spears’ “Oops.. I did it again”. I’m a fan talaga! :)

17. FIRST hospitalization?
First year in College, because of dengue! Sheesh..

18. FIRST foreign country you've been to?
Wala pa but if I will choose, I would really love to go to Korea. :)

19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
“Paano ang Puso Ko”.. pero I’m not sure kung yun talaga yung title basta Juday-Wowie yun!

20. When was your FIRST detention?
Wala! :)

21. What did you do with your FIRST paycheck?
Pinangbayad sa mga bills and gave my tithes. :)

22. Your FIRST social networking site?
Friendster.

23. Who FIRST invited you to Facebook?
I’m aware of it and our manager is a member of so many networking sites but I am not influenced to joining because I already have my blogspot :)

ANYWAY, here's some experimentation i did in photoshop :) funny things! plus pictures i got from igma.tv of my favorite stars :)

vector try out lang! ganda na sana pagkakagawa sa katawan, pagdating sa mukha waah! blooper! :) hehe.. at least nag-try ako di ba? :)

inspired by lomo-love.. :)

i love, kyLa! :)

..and isabell too! beautiful and classy :)

lovi and glaiza.. cute partners! :)

Hope you enjoy it!! :)

just some of the things running in my mind right now..

..i am watching "bitoy's funniest videos" right now.. that's one of my guilty pleasures every saturday evening and also one of the reasons why sometimes i don't want to go out on saturday night because i don't want to miss an episode of bitoy's.. :) it's such a fun tv experience in the philippines.. eversince, it never failed to make me laugh out loud and even smile :) all the stresses and depression for the day are easily removed in my system.. and i can attest that it's a very healthy habit! galing talaga ni bitoy! he's one of the reasons why tv viewing is such an enjoyable thing for me.. kudos BITOYS! more happy and laughable years to come!!

..the people around me may not know this but i love watching films with intense action, adrenaline-pusher rush, tough guys and girls, and shiny cars.. cars.. and cars.. alam niyo na tinutukoy ko.. "fast and furious".. di ko pa napapanood pero ang ganda ng trailer.. i love paul walker!! wohoo! as well as vin diesel. :) pasok talaga si paul walker sa mga hollywood celebrity crushes ko which is sobrang konti lang.. gosh! i love the poker and tough face of these two hot actors! hehe.. wala lang, i always enjoy watching movies that talks about cars, speed and action! can't wait to see the movie! i love "2fast, 2furious" and i just hope sa pagbabalik ni vin diesel sa latest installment, worth the watch :) galing!

because my tight schedule doesn't permit me to watch movies with so much pleasure time, minsan na lang ako magkagusto sa mga films and usually what i watch is the highly-commercialized movies because i am reading the reviews of some editors/writers to some movies so na-eenganyo rna rin akong panoorin yung mga films.. anyway, i love watching (in different genres)

(a.) romantic-comedy films or feel-good movies (e.g. "she's the man", "50 first dates") when i want to de-stress and feel love all over again! :) -anyway, i'm such a hopeless romantic- haha!

(b.) intense romance movie (e.g. "the notebook", "sweet november") these movies are some that retained in my memory even though i have watched it for so long ago already.. this kind of genre, stirs so much emotion to me.. grabe! i feel like watching these films when i want to go all out being "emo".. haha! :)

(c.) all-girls lead action, kick-ass films (e.g. "charlie's angels" -love drew!-, "naked weapon") it kinda felt like being proud of my being a GIRL! :) sexy, beautiful, but full of wit, confidence, and really tough!

(d.) high school, teeny-bopper films (e.g. "high school musical", "bring it on!") of course, part me is still a high schooler teen who still gets excited about these kind of films.. siyempre kinikilig pa rin ako sa ganitong films because it tackles about high school which is one of the important highlights of my life and it can bring me down the memory lane.. :) i also love the competitions :)

(e.) historical/epic films (e.g. "troy", "gladiator") wala lang, pampatalino about history :) at talaga namang grandioso talaga ang bawat setup! bring us to ancient greece times..

(f.) of course, family films.. (e.g. "mano po", "filipinas, "bahay kubo", "parent trap", "pursuit of happyness"!) whew! ang dami pa! basta pinoy, family always come first.. totoo yun kaya nga bentang-benta sa atin ang mga family-oriented films at pati sa akin pasok din.. it reminds all of us, filipinos, how we are willing to fight for our family.. and we became complete, happy, and loved because of them..

.. anyway, i saw hero angeles kanina sa eat bulaga. ang cute niya pa rin! i love him talaga! i love his team up with sandara, the same way i love mark-jen team up.. hahayy good ol' memories :)

SUMMER NA!! :)