Heyy there!

I know I've been missing out a lot these months. Since 2011 arrived, I've been terribly busy and I can never find enough, inspiring time to blog here and for that, I am deeply saddened. I have so many things to share online but my mind is cluttered with so many informations and workload that I can't seem to keep up with the online world. I'm jealous at superbianca cuz she's updating her blogspot regularly. Check here:  http://t.co/sWzXkh4 

I really, really hope to blog all about what happened in my life recently. I miss seeing my thoughts explained here. If you're missing it too, I update my tumblr every now and then when I'm not THAT busy. ► http://christinemargaritte.tumblr.com/

Anyway, I'm having a Harry Potter book-spree again. The ending is so near and I am so excited at the same time nostalgic about how this beautiful thing that happened in our lives will end already. Whew. PLUS my heart is bursting w happiness seeing my collection of DVDs. I'm gonna watch them all soon. Add to that is my many tv series backlog. Hopefully this month I finish them all. I'm so excited to become a couch potato once again, no worries and stress. I am so looking forward watching Gossip Girl seasons 3-4, Vampire Diaries, Glee, Black Swan (I know I know..), I Am Sam, Just Go With It and soo many others! Gosh, I am so behind all these nice films. Shucks. 

It's late already, gonna sleep na. Goodnight, blogspot. I missed you. :)

ps: i love these tweets i saw from superbianca (my icon) 

► is it really human nature to ask yourself, "can i do this?" i mean, how many times in your life do you ask this? and how do you answer it?

► i've always wanted to be someone and be significant and make a mark and make a difference. that still is and will always be my big dream. :)

That is my dream, too! I pray to God I can make a significant change to so many people. I really pray. :)

you will forever stay in our hearts, baby ysrael. ♥

my sister woke me up at around three o'clock in the morning last thursday to say that our baby ysrael is already in heaven.. i was so shocked i went still and burst into painful tears.. it was too soon and we all aren't ready for this. i felt so guilty at that moment because i didn't spend as much time as possible while he was still in our house. i didn't even carry him because i was afraid i might hurt his fragile little body. most of all i was so guilty because i just ignored the text message sent to me by my daddy to pray for baby rael while he's still in the hospital.. i didn't pray for him because i thought it's just a normal kind of sickness. i really believe prayer is powerful that's why when i heard what happened to baby rael, i wish i prayed fast enough that very moment i received the text that God won't take him  from us yet because the whole family is not ready. we're never ready for this kind of situation. 

thankfully, daddy sent another text message that morning saying God has His beautiful plans and He knows all things involving the life of His children.. maybe baby rael's life was cut short because of a purpose. we might not know what purpose it is yet but we're rest assured that there is.

we will forever love you, rael! so sorry that tita didn't take care of you that much while you're still here with us.. sorry also for not carrying you well enough for me to have my own memory of you in my arms. but know always that tita will never forget you and that tita loves you so much.. i promise that i will take care of all your ate's and all your cousins from now on.. i will treasure every moment i will be having with them and i will make it my life purpose to keep all your brothers and sisters from harm.. as long as i live i will give everything to them especially bright future and happier days.

rest in peace, baby rael. i love you. ♥

5 Tips To Be Beautiful

Keep your heart open: Look beyond the masks people wear and see the beauty within them. 

Begin each day with thoughts of gratitude: Appreciate every experience, even the challenges.

Affirm your inner beauty: Make positive statements of affirmation to yourself, Beauty is confidence.

Have a humble heart: Being in service to those in need helps illuminate the bright shiny light within you.

Smile often: Not only will it benefit your health, but it will touch others. Even better, laugh out loud. 

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As I was reflecting today, I felt like I am a much better person than I was last year. I felt like I've changed tremendously. Although I believe it's not a drastic change because I go through process, everything about me now is all new and it's refreshing. It's a happy realization, changing for the better. Of course as you grow older, you become the object of change, you become really better in all the things you do, and I'm just so happy that I can feel this change within me. Emotionally, intelectually, physically. Everything! I can now see beyond all the superficialities in the world. I was reading my past blog posts and it's so amazing what made me write those things! I was only 17 when I started blogging here and based on what I've been writing thorugh the years, I can really see the difference. I mean, there's maturity now for sure, I don't share so many angst in the net as much as I used to. As you can see, I only share the beautiful, the positive, the cheerfulness and I'm spreading happiness! :) Yes, there's still a bit of negativity every now and then but not so much anymore. :)


My last year's entries were all about a confused and somehow depressed me. A lot (or nothing at all?) has been going on at that time. I'm going through a process of rediscovering the sweet joy of being human but at the same time the bitterness of a heartbreak.. :p But it's all water in the bridge now. :) I am in a happy place at the moment. Last year, I partied hard. As in really hard, I admit. :p I decided last year I'm gonna spend the rest of 2010 partying because I deserve it and I wanna experience it, at least. Well, I get the experience that I want but at the end of the year, it made me realize that all the late nights I spent outside were all shallow, vain, useless, and a waste of time. However, I relish those moments because I now know the feeling - and it's a feeling of worthlessness so I'm never going to do that again. At least I already know the difference, I'm not that naiive anymore. Yes. Positivity in everything! :)


But today, I already know what makes me happy and what makes me at peace. I started my year writing down my goals for this year. The summary is that I wanna be fearless, bolder, loving, I wanna live a balanced life, to be cheerful, peaceful, relax, happy, grateful, and faithful. Five months after, I can definitely say with pride that I am achieveing these goals with triumph. :) You know that feeling when you're so happy and secured on the inside that even though your outside world is so chaotic, you seem unfazed? People are wondering why it seems like I don't have any worries, that I still laugh and smile despite all the annoying things that's happening around me. Why would I worry? I have a BIG God! I guess that is also the reason why I glow these days with so much happiness. I've been really faithful in my daily meditation and devotion eversince I started in January. Everyday, I feel like my wisdom and discernment about things increase and I know God made all these things possible. Everyday, I get comfort knowing that He guides my thoughts, my heart, my longings, I felt so blessed and really at peace. :)


Also this year, I decided to go back to one of my very first loves and it's reading books. I'm thankful for this site because it keeps track of my reading history. Only five months since I started reading again, I've gained so much knowldege already! I know reading books also helped me grasp all these wisdom and maturity so fast. It's all so cool! :) I've been reading books the entire time that it's okay now for me to just stay at home and indulge myself in reading but of course since I also want a balanced life, I also have to have a quality bonding time with all my friends and it's always fun and I repeat, I loooove my life right now. :)


SO five years from now.. I don't know what's going to happen or what I wanna do in my life yet. If I wanna go studying or continue working.. It's still a blur to me although yes, it all depends on my decisions (with God as my co-maker, of course), I still can't make up my mind yet. But I wanna study philosophy also cuz I feel like I am going to be a philosopher myself if I'm trained or practiced well. Oh gosh, I really don't know yet. Basically, I'm happy with what's going on in my life right now, this future of mine is the only dillemma and it's a good thing because I know I have to make a change in my life because change is the most permanent thing in the world and for me to not get burned down, I have to really do it - all for the better.

To end this, I recently finished reading The Diary of Anne Frank and I realized I've been ruled by these statements of her all my life.. These words stuck to me because I really, really felt the same and I'm gonna share my thoughts towards her on a separate blog post. 

These are her words:

 "I don't have much in the way of money or worldly possession. I'm not beautiful, intelligent or clever, but I'm happy and I intend to stay that way! I was born happy, I love people, I have a trusting nature and I'd like everyone else to be happy too." 

whatever happened to me this summer.

• okay, it's been a while since i last share what has been going on in my life these days. well, let's start at what happened the first few days of april. our office relocated to a much nicer and fresher environment and i'm happy with where we are right now. new home, new life! still happy as ever. :)

old home:

my new table:

• o: then a very exciting thing happened to me.. gosh! so unexpected.. i didn't know why it happened but oh well, i'm happy.. my heart is healthy. and yes, finally after five years, this is it. :) ♥

• newest inaanak. it was a happy celebration because we were almost complete. we talked about everything - from past, present to future. being with my best friends always gives me a happy feeling because i will always love having life talks with them. i love how they always appreciate my views towards life and how they always boost my morale.. i love all my friends! 

here we are doing literally last-minute shopping for our gifts.. such responsible godparents! haha! :))

• easter sunrise. this is already a yearly activity for me. :) yay! i love going to church early in the morning, even before the sun rises! it's always a blessing and always inspires me to become a much better person because i represent Jesus Christ in all the things i do.. plus He sacrificed His own life for our sins, it's only fitting that we live our lives according to His own will.. He deserves all the praise and glory and it's our sole purpose in life, to bring them all in His feet in exchange to the liberty of knowing and experiencing firsthand His greatest love for us. ♥

• finishing eat, pray, love. i started this first week of march and for the whole month of april, this is the only book that kept me busy. imagine, only one book for two months? yikes.. it was a difficult book to read for me cuz i feel like i'm still too young to read such books. :| but all my reviews and some of my favourite passage will be in another entry. hopefully i get to finish it bilang dalawang buwan ko rin yung pinaghirapan basahin. :p

•   oh, she's amazing! she's crazily nice! haha! she's ma'am cathy and i included her here because just like what i said in my birthday greeting to her in facebook, she's one of the nicest people i know. :) she owns the other unit in our office building and she would always go to our office and make some chika chika.. i made her some birthday sign and she was so happy with it. there's nothing bad with her that's why she looks so young even though she's already in her 40's. bongga di ba? ayy she's so cute and funneh! :p

• royal wedding!!! oh gosh.. it was so kilig!!! grabe, fairy tales still do exist pa rin pala talaga.. haayyy.. kate really is  our generation's princess.. ang ganda ganda niya, sobra! i hope they do live happily ever after. sige na, si kate na ang tumupad ng pangarap nating lahat na mga babae. ♥ :)

• treats for myself overload! ang saya maging babae kahit na nga ang gastos! haha! 

• and finally, my upcat woes. haay. pano ba to? my due's until June 30 na lang. :| to go or not to go, that is the question.. i don't wanna plan on my own anymore. i lift all these things to You, Lord. You know what's best for me. :)

So this is what happened to me on the first month of summer. Nothing much. Couch potato pa din ako. :| Hopefully, I get to to go to the beach this summer bilang kelangan ko nang ma-detoxify lahat ng free radicals sa balat ko! Or pwede din sa swimming pool na lang. Gusto ko lang mag-swim dahil ang init, init na talaga!


Praying for a more exciting second part of my summer. Please, Lord. :)

got this from tumblr and since i don't have anything to do, this will be a tonight-me-challenge. na-miss ko magganito eh. here we go! :)

10 secrets

• i always seek balance in all aspects of my life
• i am fanatic
• i don't like being tagged as plain and simple cuz i'm really not
• i am very conservative, though
• i've never been kissed. :)
• i love the feeling and the process of falling in love
• i have this weird wish of spending my birthday at jollibee at any age. :)
• i want to have a cute whole-day-date at disneyland. :)
• i keep everything to myself.
• imma hopeless romantic. :p

9 loves

• my Father, my Bestfriend, my Redeemer, my God. ♥
• family
• friends
• ♥ O
• books
• foods
• technology
• pretty and inspiring stuff
• i love everything. i always love, i don't hate. :)

8 fears

• heights
• rats/animals of all kinds
• injections. :(
• losing a loved one.
• goons/deadly weapons
• getting hurt physically
• losing balance in life
• nothing more. :p

7 wants

• shoes!!!
• pretty accessories
• books/magazines
• food!!
• spending quality years with him
• reunion with my elementary and high school classmates
• a lomo camera

6 places you want to go

• paris
• south korea
• santorini
• el nido, palawan
• amanpulo
• bellaroca, marinduque

5 foods

• anything squid!
• siomai ♥
• burgers
• isaw
• lobster

4 books

• hunger games trilogy - suzanne collins
• harry potter series - j.k. rowling
• confessions of a shopaholic (the whole series, too) - sophie kinsella
• sarah dessen books. :)

3 films

• parent trap
• cutting edge
• what a girl wants

2 songs (this is hard because i loooove music!)

• greatest story ever told - oliver james
• i could not ask for more - edwin mccain

1 favourite(?) picture

• this is one year old picture. :) favourite eh! :p

Have a lovely night! :)

Let God write your love story.

(So true. We just have to be grateful for these people who never gave up on us no matter how hard it is to love us sometimes. It's really nice to know that there are certain people in our lives who actually cared and who are willing to wait no matter how long or no matter how uncertain the future seems to be. It's heartwarming when you know that you are worthy of patience and appreciation of someone. God's ways are really beautiful.)

The title of this post came from sheenalovessunsets because she recently got engaged! Hooray! :) I have always been inspired by people who shares their own love story written by God. Sometimes, we tend to be impatient with everything that's going on in our lives that we set aside the Lord's plan for us. Sometimes, it's so much better to just indulge ourselves doing the things we think is right and good for us not thinking that God has prepared something much better for all of us and that He knows everything. He actually cares and involves Himself in our lives more than what we imagine or what we know. Isn't it amazing?

There are certain things that happened to my heart the last few weeks. I almost gave in to what my own emotions were saying, disregarding God's words over and over again. I kept on saying "pwede na" but He insists on saying "not yet". Thankfully, He also makes it a point that I obey His will and that is to stay patient with everything. He always makes me realize that He does all things beautifully in His own sweet time. All we have to do is to surrender to His will and keep on seeking His will in our lives. 

For now, it's safe to say that I already surrender everything to Him. From dreams, secret longings, aspirations to love life, I gave God my full trust and confidence. Where this will lead me, I will accept it all because I know there's a higher purpose in all of these. 

To end this post, let me share to you a beautiful illustration of giving first our hearts to God because He cares for it more than anybody else in this world. :) ♥

THIS is what I love about tumbLr. I always thought I was the only one to do and think stupid things. Until I joined this site. It was really awesome like I feel I can spend my life forever just surfing so many wonderful and inspiring tumbLr blogs - from inspirational and happy things to kilig stuff to yummy food blogs to fashion inspirations. TumbLr just says exactly what I feel and think that's why I am so blessed that I get to know this amazing site. Imagine living your life facing computer the whole day with nothing to do (sometimes) then the only site you ever go to is facebook or google or youtube.. It's just so boring!! The picture above describes perfectly what almost every person in the world is doing before going to sleep.. TumbLr helps me realize that being a normal human being is, well, normal.. And seeing things you thought is weird is actually pretty normal to a lot of people. Example: 

When I saw this yesterday, I laughed so hard cuz I'm so guilty with this. :))) Hahaha! It makes me think tumbLr is really awesome! Oh yeah! So many pretty stuff going on in there, so many affirmations that really makes you smile broadly. Ang galing, galing, galing! :) Another sample of the feel-good advices and pretty things :

It's all so pretty and all so cool!! If you still don't have a tumbLr account, oh gosh, you're missing something big in your life! Go ahead sign up now and follow all my tumbLr accounts :))

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Enjoy life!!