How do I change?

If I feel depressed I will sing.
If I feel sad I will laugh.
If I feel ill I will double my labour.
If I feel fear I will plunge ahead.
If I feel inferior I will wear new garments.
If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice.
If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come.
If I feel incompetent I will think of past success.
If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals.

Today I will be the master of my emotions.

"_saw this at my old posts and i felt refreshed somehow although the pain is still there.. Very helpful insight about how i handle my emotions as of this moment in my life.. Enough said.. bye! "

bkt ganun?

i have so much to tell, yet i can't find the perfect and exact words to say.. i am still in confusion - no, more on sakit kasi nakakainis na yung mga nangyayari around me. Ang sakit na ng ulo ko!

Help!.. Haix.. More kuwento na lang soon pag ok na ako, I don't really feel well. Waah!
More kuwento about birthdays and birthdays and an all-girls-night-out..

The Purpose Driven Life



I have always been inspired by great people (famous people) making testimonies about their personal lives. Whenever I have the opportunity to read interviews like this, I’m getting jealous because I do not know if I will have that opportunity of sharing the life I lived and IF there will be some people who will be blessed just by hearing it. I always say that I really wanted to make a difference in this world I am living in but the BIG question is, HOW?? I know sometimes I am disappointing/offending others because of the way I act towards them during my low and stressful days and I wonder if it’s making any difference – better or worse… I’m a “believer”, but I still have doubts and uncertainties deep down my heart and I know it’s not doing any good in my life but.. but.. and but…



I am experiencing I don’t know how to address this but I felt like I’m in the transition of “growing up” and at the same time, “growing away and away..” I’m scared actually on how my life’s going on these past days. I am going out of control, I am slipping away, drowning without something to hold onto.. I’m tired of running away, of not recognizing and addressing the real problem within me. I am in pain and confusion but why?

The latter part of the interview is much more painful in my part because I always claim that I’m a God’s child but then why am I stressing myself doing so many things in my “to-do list” and forgot that God needs me.. just me, my character, my heart.. not those things I am wanting to achieve just to please Him or any other people around me. I always know that but why am I giving my life a hard time? Am I not living God-driven purposes in my life? It’s true, I am more driven by the world’s desires and pressures that I forgot to sit down, relax, feel the loving presence of God as always in my life, His loving comfort and guidance, and His being my Father.

I still don’t know what to act towards these things. I might as well stop, listen, and feel… Feel

P.S. Upon and after writing this entry, I still feel the burden eating me up.
Help me God fix my life and put it into order. I’m so sorry for everything. Thank You for just being there.
Again, help me. :(

I Love You, Lord! :p

birthdays!

Birthday ng sis ko today, her 28th i think.. and one more thing Birthday naman ni Chris kahapon and wala lang, ang saya saya ko kasi i found out his blog.. true!! may blog na xang sarili and I felt so giddy bcuz i now have contact in his private world, at least i somehow know the bits and pieces of his thinking tsaka maa-update ako to what's happening in his life nowadays.. na-inspire na naman tuloy akong magblog parati esp now na nakakabasa pa ako ng mga bagay-bagay about him.. typical fan ako and it's normal to want some update from our idol db? ang saya talaga! grabe.. :)

What's more nakakatuwa about him is that puro positive yung nalaman ko about him.. di masyadong nagka-club, di mahilig sa socialization with rich and feeling rich, walang bisyo, he drinks but once in a while lang for some team parties, very active and excellent basketball player, a budding entrepreneur, consistent dean's lister, valedictorian dati, matalino, humble, mabait, at siyempre naman alam kong magaling din talaga xang host, PROUD TO BE! :) at may girlfriend na pala siya, hmmm..

share ko lang na everytime na nasa tv xa, wala lang akong ginagawa kundi tumili ng tumili.. at kilig na kilig ako niyan ha? my goodness.. wala eh, typical fan nga talaga ako :) hehe.. ayun, he also share sa blog niya na he has an upcoming show and truly wish ko lang na sana matuloy pero hosting with Paolo Bediones sana sa Survivor Philippines.. hayy, i won't miss each episode talaga.. :) ang dami-dami ko pang nalaman about him na sobrang nagapatindi ng paghanga ko sa kanya! weeh.. ang light lang tuloy ng maghapon ko, i have another inspiration na naman sa blogging.. Just continue blogging sana para lalo akong ma-inspire.. I LOVE CHRIS TIU!! the same intensity feeling i have for DENNIS TRILLO.. :) hehe.. saya talaga!

anyways, update sa aking beloved network, ang GANDA-GANDA ng ASERO!! wohooh! pag nanunood ka, parang nanunood ka din ng pelikula.. high tech talaga at powerhouse cast din! ang galing.. pwede na pantapat sa LUPIN.. :) ang galing talaga.. proud to be .. again!! sana nga masundan ko talaga yung mga episodes para masaya.. galing ni heart! :) tsaka si Janno at Bitoy.

Nabati ko na si Chris Tiu ng happy birthday, ok na yun! :)

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parang ang sarap maging bata uLi..


i was internet surfing na naman kanina when i saw the oLd pictures of Nayong Pilipino and i thought to myself na vinoice-out ko din sa mga officemates ko na parang ang sarap maging bata uli after seeing those old pictures and how refreshing and unstressful those times seemed to be.. i remember when i was still a child, konti lang mga problems, i had plenty of time to sleep in the afternoon, walang traffic, walang polusyon masyado, hindi maalikabok, konti pa lang ang may sasakyan, hindi pa ganun kainit kahit summer, and the most important of all, di pa mahal ang mga bilihin.. Laidback lang yung everyday kind of living, unlike now na sobrang tindi palagi ng kompetisyon and it's driving everyone of us to be the best that we can be and it includes being tough in all aspects of living, whether professionally or personally.. wala lang, sarap lang i-share nung mga fondest memories ko back when i was a child.. wherein nakakapaglaro pa ako, nakakaligo sa ulan kahit sa basakan! :) and then walang ginagawa kundi maglaro at pag pinapatulog na di makatulog, nag-iisip kung kelan ako tatanda at magdadalaga.. such memories na masarap balik-balikan kc it's making you feel younger and unpressured about the things that's going on around you.. It's actually a renewing thought for me, wishing and hoping na maranasan ko uLi those childlike yet fun activities. Dalaga na kc ako ngayon eh and i have to base my acts and thoughts my age.. hirap mag-adjust from pagiging bata, teenager at ngayon, professional na "kuno"! weehh.. :p

Basta old pictures of old places here in the Philippines such as Nayong Pilipino, Luneta, and so many more interests me talaga.. buti na nga lang may internet na kc yung mga places na gusto kong makita at puntahan talaga ay nakikita ko na dito.. Ang ganda.. Gusto ko talagang mapuntahan lahat ng dako ng Pilipinas.. astig ko siguro nun pero for sure pag milyonaryo na ako nun saka yung mangyayari which i hope happens soon! very soon!! hehe.. Libre ang mangarap! :)

eniweiz, UPDATE from me.. i already have a cellphone! and much more, rebonded na ako.. Gosh! kainis lang db? :)
take a peek from my new look ..

friendster & diff. account hopping..

i'm just bumming around in the net for how many hours? kaninang-kanina pa.. checking out blogs, and friendster pics.. kakatuwa makakita ng pics ng mga people in the past.. so funny :)

sadly, wala pa ring bagong post si bianca kaya parang wala ring gana.. nag-post ng mga bagong comments.. ngayon lang talaga ako nakatambay sa friendster ng matagal and i had fun.. so much! nakakatuwa at nakakapanglait yung ibang pics, honestly! hehe..

let me share to you a lot of funny yet memorable pics na nakita ko from friendster hopping.. :)
have fun!