abnormality :(

today is just the day.. just a normal day with abnormal people around me.. pati tuloy ako nadadamay na din sa kaabnormalan nila.. sis!! heLp.. oMG.. as in.. i saw him, that's good di ba? and then 'saw him with other girl, that's bad.. ouchh! can you imagine the kilig factor i felt taz biglang yung excitement na nadama ko bumulusok paibaba.. it's too bad and it's too painful i can be the next diamond star :( .. "plastik" in short.. hayy.. ang saya-saya sana kasi reunion kami ng halos lahat ng classmates DMA taz may kasama pa palang asungot?? ah ewan! i can't help but to share it to you kasi nga since i don't have any friends around, wala na akong mapag-share-an and i have to express this one or else i'll feel too miserable.. oohhh.. it hurts, really! nakakainis ng bonggang-bongga! ang tahimik ng buhay ko tapos biglang nagulo na naman.. hayy same the other day? nadadalas na to ah.. pero parang mas matimbang na tong recent, the one i am talking about.. siguro since grad ball days pa lang or before.. yeah! right! medyo na-feel ko na yun nung grad but di ko na lang masyadong inisip until tonight.. shocks, totoo kaya? Oh Lord (i'm sorry, really i am, You're blasphemed) but sana WAAG!! no, hindi pwede.. talagang hindi.. gosh!!


you know what i did lang dun kanina? nagpa-cute lang at hinayaang maglukso-lukso ang hearty ko.. ah ewan! kakainisss.. (grabeng emphasis na talaga!) although he's talking naman talaga to me almost all of the time but it's all about the work, work, and work.. careers and anything.. what am i supposed to do?!.. jealousy's eating me up and i really don't know what to do.. will i just let it pass and let time blow it all over again? and again, and again? ang sad naman ng buhay _ _ _ - _ _ _ _ ko.. :( pareho lang siguro kami ng kapalaran ni Roxanne G., hanggang career lang suwerte pero sa lovelife, flattened na distorted pa at sobrang pixelise na hindi na talaga mai-re-restore kahit pa ng illustrator o corell.. whaat?! hayaan you na me, ganito ko lang talagang aliwin ang sarili ko pag sobra-sobrang pain ang na-encounter ng fragile kong puso.. :(


na naman!?! ewan ko nga din, wala na akong kadala-dala.. oh shut my heart out! tama na nga! all i know is that it really hurts, cyber sis ha! (wow sosyal ng title mo..) :) ok, from now on, ikaw na yun.. byebye for now, signing off, goodnight! :0 waahh!

FILM REVIEW & ANALYSIS_

it's one of the most touching, most heartwarming, most beautiful film i've watched in this life.. grabe! as in.. ang tindi! galing galing talaga! i had high expectation in this movie at talaga namang they never fail me.. i totally appreciate the film and its synopsis.. minsan lang akong maka-appreciate ng pelikula and when that happens, hindi ko na nakakalimutan yung pelikulang yun and that also happens to this one great film.. one of the best masterpiece of all time. Ms. Maricel Soriano is such a great actress, deserved to be called the "Diamond Star" because she embodies the qualities of a diamond - rare, one-of-a-kind, precious, and polished.. :) every film of Ms. Maricel is truly unforgettable.. the script and the whole casting is just so perfect.. the blending of the group is good to watch.. and i appreciate the people behind this for creating such a beautiful film.. i'll cite muna si Ms. Maricel for her great acting prowess "Best Actress" talaga kasi sobrang galing niya! hayy.. simula pa lang sa:


_MILA_ABNDONADA -nakakaiyak yub ng todo todo!
_MANO PO I -galing niya din dun!
_FILIPINAS - one of my most favorite local film at best actress siya dun!
_INANG YAYA -best actress din
_A LOVE STORY
_ at eto nga ang BAHAY KUBO!
galing-galing..

napakagaling na artista at talagang hahangaan mo siya.. hindi pa rin kumukupas ang galing niya, siyempre!

at siyempre yung perfect blending and mixing of characters in the film add hype & beauty also.. sana nga may part 2! :) i highly commended these powerful cast for making an impact not just in my life but also for others na i'm sure maraming marami din..

MARIAN RIVERA - she shines in her own style of acting.. she's really a great actres.. i love her! :)
YASMIEN KURDI - idol na din talaga! :) hehe.. ang galing at ang cute niya sa pelikula as well as her role, gusto ko siya dito..
SHAINA MAGDAYAO - it's nice to see artists from different networks in one great film and i appreciate her role here and also sided at her, too.. i'm a kapuso but i appreciate her and a good thing she blended easily with the kapuso artists..
JIRO MANIO - magaling naman talaga yung taong yun eh! may ipanlalaban din.. sayang lang at wala siyang shows masyado sa 2 pero ok lang yun, regal baby naman siya at ang daming movies na naka-line up.. magpa-kapuso baby na lang din sana siya..
ISABELLA DE LEON - ang laki-laki na ni duday! hehe.. ang galing galing! sana marami pa siyang maging project.. magaling talaga siya kasi ang daming tearful moments niya along with
______ - magkapatid silang tunay dito ni duday and she can really be a fine actress.. and siyempre ang bunso ay si.. dyaraan!!..
SAM BUMATAY! hehe.. ang cute niya dito and nag-blend din talaga silang magkakapatid dito ng husto.. total bonding! :) galing niya din talaga..of course..
MARK HERRAS - na-appreciate ko yung role niya dito as well as him na rin ng husto kasi ang cute niya lang dito.. walang masyadong hassle.. lalo na pag natu-torpe siya kay marian, hehe ang cute lang nilang tingnan.. :)
RAYVER CRUZ - as usual, kulitan at asaran lang sila ni Shaina, sayang nga lang di na sila ang pinagpa-partner.. ngayon ko lang na-appreciate ng husto yung team-up nila.. hmm..
BEARWIN MEILLY - hay naku 12 years nang nanligaw sa isa din sa paborito kong character in the film until finally napasagot din.. hahayy! he added spice to the already spicy film.. :)
MS. GLORIA ROMERO - regal as always.. beautiful and a great lola.. :)ERIC QUIZON - muntik ko nang makalimutan ang ama.. :) pero, ano na nga ang significance niya sa movie?? toinx.. hehe!
the last but DEFINITELY the best.. ..

si EUGENE DOMINGO!! whoohh.. ang galing galing niya talaga! idol.. :) "Best Supporting Actress" din talaga.. ang ingay niya sa pelikul but definitely may sense naman yung mga sinasabi niya.. mas maingay pa nga siya halos sa bida buti hindi rin nagpatalo si Marya sa kaniya.. jokes talaga! siya lang nagpapa-light sa kuwento eh.. ang cute-cutee!! favorite ko talaga siya grabe! buti na lang kapuso na siya ngayon, mas lalo nang masaya ang buhay! :)

hayy naku kaloka na kabaliw na kakaiyak! aack! (asus term ni binaca, gaya-gaya na naman ko :) hehee.. for sure hinding-hindi magsisisi ang mg nanood at manunood pa ng pelikulang to.. one of the best family film in this era.. totoo yun!

direk JOEL LAMANGAN didn't fail me in his masterpieces.. grabe talaga siya..

BAHAY KUBO in one word: perfect!



FAVORITE QUOTE in the film:
"Lahat kayo mga anak ko, lahat kayo galing dito sa puso ko!"
_Maricel Soriano

confused na naman ako?

"Today, your response to a new announcement or idea could surprise other people in the room. They never knew you could be so jaded -- and neither did you! Act fast before you lose the last remnants of your idealistic tendencies -- you need them to balance yourself out on days like today. They've been sleeping, just waiting for a time when they'll be necessary and relevant in your life again. Let yourself be impressed by the magic that is around you every day."

_that is according to my horoscope for today in my friendster.. hmm.. what's the meaning of this? am i still idealist pa ba? oo siguro i still possess that personality but somehow i didn't have enough time to practice that burning idealism in my system.. how would i practice that? maybe the way i think towards all the things that are happening in my life right now.. sobrang ang dami-dami kasi eh! nalulunod na nga ako sa kaiisip ..

btw, i'm so confused na!! there are so many things i wanted to do yet can't find the motivation and courage to do so.. anyways kaya lang naman siguro ako naging ganito is because may naggulo na naman ng nananahimik kong sistema. hay! he called me up kanina and i really don't know how to answer him so i dropped the phone! my goodness.. i was so shocked, really! alam mo yun? sobrang ang tagal, tagal na since the last time we communicate each other akala ko wala na tapos biglang ganun.. hayy ewan.. nakakawindang talaga! grabe.. i'm not ready to face the past so i'd rather be mum about everything.. tama na muna.

FOCUS! FOCUS!.. naku-krung-krung na naman ako.. basta! my mood for today? i'm sad and it hurts to think pa those painful things on my mind.. ewan ba! nagsi-senti na naman ako!! i said it's enough.. ok lang lahat.. medyo confusing at boring lang ang mga nangyari sa araw ko..

i'll just take my time to absorb everything that's taking place in my life right at this moment.. i know i can learn many things and so much things on these experiences..

mabuhay! :) asus! chuva..

kapuso ako!

mahilig talaga ako sa mga balitang artista.. kadalasan, nauubos ang oras ko sa pagsi-surf tungkol sa mga showbiz chika.. Baduy mang masasabi pero ewan ko, may balak nga ata akong pumasok sa mundo ng "glitz and glamour".. wow! :) wala lang, talaga lang sigurong interesting ang tungkol sa kanila.. nakakainis lang nga kasi dito sa office, kapamilya sila.. sobrang
nami-miss ko na ang kapuso shows! ano na kaya ang updates sa aking home network nakikibalita na nga lang ako sa pep.. thanks to them! :) nalaman ko na tonight na pala ang Songbird ni Ms. Regine Velasquez at nung Monday naman nagstart ang 8th Sinenovela starring Dennis Trillo (papable ever!) and Katrina Halili.. sa abs, todong update talaga ako na nagpapa-badtrip naman talaga sa akin.. hahayy! the reason why i watch 2 is because of bianca and the rest? hmm.. kumukulo dugo ko! ganito siguro talaga
ang nagagawa ng loyalty.. :) anyways, maraming magagandang pelikula ngayon na i'm sure papanoorin ko talaga.. like I.T.A.L.Y which stars dennis, jolens, and rufa mae! saya nun..
heehee! tsaka yung "caregiver" ni Sharon, i will certainly watch that kahit December na dumating yung mga cd's dito.. yung BFGF nga di pa din talaga dumadating ka-bad trip!
Naunahan pa ng Big Love na hayy naku! hindi ko nga pinanood kahit ni-rent nila.. hmp! na-feel ko lang talaga agad na i won't like the flow of the story kasi it's common! (duh..) for sure i will like the bfgf kasi for the first time si Marian naman ang naka-partner ni Chard and they were just so cute tingnan sa screen.. :)

anyways, nami-miss ko nang makapanood ng mga may sense na koreanovela like full house and sassy girl.. kaya ang ginagawa ko nagsi-search na lang ako ng mga images nina jessie at shun-hyang.. hayy..nakaka-miss talaga yung full house days namin.. grabe kc talaga yun! ok that's all for now siguro basta i'LL wait na lang for the ff. movies:

_banal
_bfgf
_bahay kubo
_caregiver
_i.t.a.l.y.

_at mga local films pa na gagawin basta may quality! for sure yan.. hayy sige babye na muna :)

GOODBYE

by: Juana
from the album: Misbehavior

Didn't mean to hurt you badly
Don't think that I am fooling around with you
So sorry for the time you've wasted on me
So sorry for the things that you went through
But I know that the problem's within me
You're so nice but your love don't deserve me
Or maybe I'm just so scared to fall in love again

I can still remember the days
So many times, I've been hurt
So much trust I put on a relationship
So much suffering I got and the pain still remain
You know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk
So confused and I don't know how to deal with it
Need some time for a while before I give my heart away

CHORUS
Don't say goodbye
Don't say goodbye
I need some time for a while before I give my heart away

Don't say goodbye
Don't say goodbye
I need some time for a while before I give my heart away

Now, I know I wasn't thinking before
That's why I'm always ending up with Mr. Wrong
Learning from the past, don't wanna make a mistake
You could be Mr. Right or could be a fake

You know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk
So confused and I don't know how to deal with it
Need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

[Repeat CHORUS]

AD LIB

[Repeat CHORUS]


_“One of my favorite song since I first heard it because it says what my heart really express and I can always relate to the song.. It’s just that there are of course portions from it I still can’t relate to but the feeling of being afraid is just so real.

Here I am at our house having some senti moments na hindi ko na matandaan yung last time I became senti to the point of being inspired to write down the feelings.. my gosh! :) hehehe.. talagang may ganun? I just take this opportunity na makapagsulat because of my demanding schedule, I am sure month from now pa ako magkakaroon uli ng time to post some matino-tinong blog.. hay.. ano nga bang tinino nitong blog entry na to? Ewan ko din.. maybe – maybe lang ha? Hehe.. siguro I just want to share the fear of being in love again? Yun ba yun? Hmm.. ewan.. of being afraid to trust again and to risk my fragile heart to become hurt again.. Can I take it the second, the third or the fourth? I don’t know.. Kala mo naman todo-todong sakit talaga ang dinanas noh? Ngeks.. hehe! I just assume it’s like that.. Basta nakak-relate ako sa song and I appreciate the message.. I just hope and wish again na sana the person I’m going to sing that song will be patient enough for me to wait until the day I become ready to finally let go of all the fears I am keeping inside and that he won’t let me go and say totally “goodbye” because it hurts hah! To wait for someone who already set you free.. wow.. whoo!!

Ok, enough said.. heehee.. tama na.. I’m just thankful that I had this wonderful opportunity to write again in the late evening and to finally share what I feel inside.. It’s a really nice feeling.. I will treasure this night because I am able to share and reveal my self in this simple portion of world wide web..

Signing off, goodnight!! __

How i wish..

1. Makapag-bakasyon man lang ako or makapahinga ng kahit 1 week lang.. :(
2. mabili ko yung sapatos sa NC na so beautiful naman tlaga!
3. makatulog ako ng mahimbing sa isang malambot na kama at preskong kuwarto.. hmmm..
4. makakain ng masasarap na pagkain!
5. ma-meet ko si Bianca Gonzalez and Dennis Trillo.. :)
   
   
   
   
   
6. makabisita ako sa GMA network .. I really wish!!
   
   
7. makapag-travel ako sa marami pang places dito sa Pilipinas.. as I always dreamed of..
8. I can experience one whole day pampering myself in a spa.. (what an extravagance!)
9. mabalik yung passion ko sa writing as well as my time to write.. :(
10. maging magaling na graphic artist talaga someday and to hone my craft even more..
11. matupad mga dreams ko esp. to build my own dream house..
12. to help my family, help other people, help many, many Christian ministries..
13. ma-perform ko ng maayos ang Christian duties and responsibilities ko..
14. magkaroon agad kami ng reunion (the whole DMA batch) I miss them!
15. makatagpo ako ng kapayapaan which is innate and unremovable..
16. magkaroon ng saysay ang buhay ko sa mundo at marami ang maka-appreciate ng presensiya ko dito sa mundo.. weehh!!
17. wag akong ma-burnout agad!
18. magkaroon ako ng matinong post which really came from the heart (mine heart) and not from anyone else’s ideas.. hmmm..
19. matupad ang mga wishes na ito at magkaroon pa ako ng maraming wishes!