confused na naman ako?

"Today, your response to a new announcement or idea could surprise other people in the room. They never knew you could be so jaded -- and neither did you! Act fast before you lose the last remnants of your idealistic tendencies -- you need them to balance yourself out on days like today. They've been sleeping, just waiting for a time when they'll be necessary and relevant in your life again. Let yourself be impressed by the magic that is around you every day."

_that is according to my horoscope for today in my friendster.. hmm.. what's the meaning of this? am i still idealist pa ba? oo siguro i still possess that personality but somehow i didn't have enough time to practice that burning idealism in my system.. how would i practice that? maybe the way i think towards all the things that are happening in my life right now.. sobrang ang dami-dami kasi eh! nalulunod na nga ako sa kaiisip ..

btw, i'm so confused na!! there are so many things i wanted to do yet can't find the motivation and courage to do so.. anyways kaya lang naman siguro ako naging ganito is because may naggulo na naman ng nananahimik kong sistema. hay! he called me up kanina and i really don't know how to answer him so i dropped the phone! my goodness.. i was so shocked, really! alam mo yun? sobrang ang tagal, tagal na since the last time we communicate each other akala ko wala na tapos biglang ganun.. hayy ewan.. nakakawindang talaga! grabe.. i'm not ready to face the past so i'd rather be mum about everything.. tama na muna.

FOCUS! FOCUS!.. naku-krung-krung na naman ako.. basta! my mood for today? i'm sad and it hurts to think pa those painful things on my mind.. ewan ba! nagsi-senti na naman ako!! i said it's enough.. ok lang lahat.. medyo confusing at boring lang ang mga nangyari sa araw ko..

i'll just take my time to absorb everything that's taking place in my life right at this moment.. i know i can learn many things and so much things on these experiences..

mabuhay! :) asus! chuva..