you will forever stay in our hearts, baby ysrael. ♥

my sister woke me up at around three o'clock in the morning last thursday to say that our baby ysrael is already in heaven.. i was so shocked i went still and burst into painful tears.. it was too soon and we all aren't ready for this. i felt so guilty at that moment because i didn't spend as much time as possible while he was still in our house. i didn't even carry him because i was afraid i might hurt his fragile little body. most of all i was so guilty because i just ignored the text message sent to me by my daddy to pray for baby rael while he's still in the hospital.. i didn't pray for him because i thought it's just a normal kind of sickness. i really believe prayer is powerful that's why when i heard what happened to baby rael, i wish i prayed fast enough that very moment i received the text that God won't take him  from us yet because the whole family is not ready. we're never ready for this kind of situation. 

thankfully, daddy sent another text message that morning saying God has His beautiful plans and He knows all things involving the life of His children.. maybe baby rael's life was cut short because of a purpose. we might not know what purpose it is yet but we're rest assured that there is.

we will forever love you, rael! so sorry that tita didn't take care of you that much while you're still here with us.. sorry also for not carrying you well enough for me to have my own memory of you in my arms. but know always that tita will never forget you and that tita loves you so much.. i promise that i will take care of all your ate's and all your cousins from now on.. i will treasure every moment i will be having with them and i will make it my life purpose to keep all your brothers and sisters from harm.. as long as i live i will give everything to them especially bright future and happier days.

rest in peace, baby rael. i love you. ♥