ChristineMargaritte :)

life is sweeter when you're in love..

but can you handle the pain?.

“We cannot live unaffected by love. We are most alive when we find it, most devastated when we lose it, most empty when we give up on it, most inhumane when we betray it and most passionate when we pursue it.”

ok, it's february. and so what?! Why the senti entrance and entry? Hmm.. Every february, i can't help myself but be senti because as we can notice, the air speaks so much of love! .. and that's what my post is all about. I'm not saying i am expert on this but i just wanna share my knowledge, experiences, and observations on this super complicated word yet in fact the most basic thing why we continue to live..

1. My points/takes on my own lovelife. :)
My lovelife nowadays is so dull. Period. (That's why valentines day is so depressing for me. haha!) ok, but once it was so damn coroLful.. este coLorfuL pala! When we're in love, (as in we :p) we see the world in a very different perspective. There's always magic, heavenly feelings, and yes, love is there! High school loving moments will always be, not naman the best, but most memorable because there are a lot of firsts, right? Maybe it's your first experience of dating, of being in a relationship, this maybe your most awkward, funniest yet cutest that can ever happen to your highschool life..

2. My Confusions About this 4-letter-word..
case a: For girls, may ilan na may mga boyfriend na pero nagpapaligaw pa din.. I don't get it kasi kung ako ang tatanungin, I'd rather think of ways on how to strengthen the relationship rather to entertain any suitors kasi ano bang purpose ng panliligaw, di ba para sagutin ka ng manliligaw mo? Paano mangyayari yun kung in a relationship yung taong nililigawan mo? Tapos for girls, ego trip ba yun o talagang feeling long hair lang talaga sila pag maraming nanliligaw sa kanila. Kung ayaw talagang magpaligaw maraming paraan ang you can easily tell straight to their faces that you don't like it to be pursued.

case b: For boys naman, why some of them are so flirty? Kahit may girlfriend na pag nalaman nilang may crush si ganito, ganyan sa kanila nililigawan din agad and worse, pag may ibang girls tapos wala yung mga girlfriends nila nagpapa-charming naman! Konti na lang talaga ang mga faithful ngayon kaya swerte na lang talaga pag loyal o faithful ang boyfriend mo sa 'yo..

case c: Isa sa mga weird din for me, sa showbiz ha, i'm sure marami rin sa inyo ang nagtataka kasi bakit yung iba hindi pa nila inaamin na steady na sila ng isang tao kahit na nga halata na sa mga ikinikilos nila. Bakit kailangang itago, kailangan pang sabihin na 'exclusively dating, going there' chuva eh lagi naman silang nakikitang magkasama! Ang complicated nga!

case d: Pag dumating na sa point ng breaking up ang isang relationship, ang isang scape goat ng mga boys or even girls ay maghanap ng kapalit agad-agad at para sa akin, hindi naman ata tama yun. It's unfair to both you and the person na ginamit mo to get over the pain.. It's ok lang naman na you succumb your self to pain because we are humans and pain is inevitable so siguro ang magagawa na lang natin ay mag-adjust sa bawat situations. Naalala ko nga yung linya ni John Lloyd sa "one more chance" movie..

"bash, hindi mo ba alam ang tinatawag na three month grace period? lahat ng taong na-in love at nakipag-break ay alam yun, maghihintay ka muna.. tatlong buwan! "
i will cite my experience as an example.. ako, naghintay din ako ng three months ha? di ako guilty diyan.. :)

3. My Friend's Cases
• This friend a and c, as in nati-take mag-two time! Gosh.. Isn't it disgusting?! Siguro ito na yung sinasabi nilang esteem booster but i don't really agree with it. It's soo inhumane.. yeah, correct term kasi nga i strongly believe in the golden rule so what if sa kanila naman gawin yun, di ba painful naman? Tapos yun din ang igaganti so parang ang mangyayari paulit-ulit na lang. So dizzying!

• Friend b naman, walang kadala-dala sa mga panloloko ng lalake.. Pinapatos kahit sino na lang. Not being hypocrite naman no pero parang i can't stoop down to their level kasi maayos na babae naman ako, pinag-aral at pinalaki ng maayos tapos magbu-boyfriend lang ako ng so-so? Wag naman.. I'm sorry if may na-offend ako pero I'm just stating what's on my mind at yung paniniwala ko. Peace out! :)

• Friend d, nagbu-boyfriend pero hindi naman nakikipag-date o nakikipagkita sa boyfriend niya! Weirdness nga naman.. For me, nag-boyfriend ka pa tapos di mo naman ginagawa yung obligasyon mo bilang isang girlfriend. Parang useless din di ba! tsk.. tsk

• My friend c naman ang kabaligtaran ni friend d kasi halos oras-oras ata silang magkasama ng boyfriend niya and yet walang kasawaan sa pagmumukha ng isa't isa! Pwede naman sigurong every other night sila magkita di ba? Naiisip ko, ano naman kaya ang pinag-uusapan nila at kung umasta sila eh dekada na ang nakalipas ng magkita sila. Hayy!

• Friend e, nakipag-break sa kanya yung boyfriend niya tapos she tried and worked so hard para magkabalikan sila, did everything para mapansin nito.. to the point na siya na ang nanliligaw sa lalake, tinetext niya and everything pero in the end nairita na rin sa kakulitan niya yung 'ex' na kahit sobrang bait at iniintindi pa rin siya pero hindi niya na talaga kayang i-workout eh kaya kung anu-ano na nasasabi para lumayo na itong friend E ko. Actually it lasted for almost a year! Saksi ako sa lahat ng heartaches nito friend ko pero for my opinion kung ayaw na sa akin ng guy, fine.. Mag-iiyak ako but when i say i will move on, wala nang balikan talaga, after what he did to me?! Dapat naman talaga ganun di ba?

• My case, o dahil wala lang akong boyfriend ngayon kaya nagiging cynical ako at nababaduyan sa kanila, o di lang sila marunong mag-balance ng love life nila na siyang confusion sa akin? which is which?! Or maybe someday if i already have my own love life eh maiintindihan ko na din sila.. at least by observing them eh may natututunan ako so that when the time comes that i am ready to give my heart away, i am armed with so many take down notes on how to solidify the union.. magiging marunong akong i-balance ang lahat. :)

.. anyway, so much for analyzing love, the big question is: this valentines season, am i happy?

i can proudly say i am! :) like what i said in my previous blog entry, i've so much love to give and so much to receive but i'm not rushing things.. there's no need kasi those things that made out of rushes, the result is unsatisfying or bitin.. right? i know dadating siya in the right place and in the right time in my life. :)

CHEESY LISTS..
my fave romantic fLicks, perfect for this valentine season! some of them nagpaluha and at the same time nagpaiyak sa akin! grabe talaga ang movies, when given the positive perspective, ang laki ng naitutulong sa atin when dealing with our love life, and even life in general..

• 50 first dates (adam sandler, drew barrymoore)
• what a girl wants (amanda bynes)
• a walk in the clouds (keannu reeves!)
• sassy girl, windstruck (korean movie)
• a very special love (john lloyd, sarah) masarap lang balik-balikan :)
• one more chance (john lloyd, bea) pati ito
• a walk to remember (mandy moore, shane west)

• the notebook

• twilight! :) (kristen stewart, robert pattinson)

• the girl next door

my favorite cheesy movie lines! :)

“alam mo bang hindi ko pinagsisisihan na pinaglaban ko ang pagmamahal ko sa iyo? kasi nalaman ko kung gaano kita kamahal..”
- angelica panganiban in "a love story"

" akala ko madali lang magpanggap na mahal ko siya yun pala mas mahirap magpanggap na hindi ko siya mahal.."
- marian rivera "my bestfriend's girlfriend"

"mahal mo ba ako? .. mahal mo ba siya? (cover popoy's eyes) .. para kung masaktan man ako, hindi mo makita.. mahal mo pa ba siya? (popoy nods) (trisha cries so hard) .. gusto mo na bang tapusin to?"
- maja salvador in "one more chance"

_ waah! pinaka-winner tong linya na to ni maja! nagustuhan ko tong pelikula dahil kay trisha, sobrang bukal ng luha ang nai-shed ko dahil kay trisha.. galing ni maja, perfect! :)

HAPPY VALENTINES ! :)

love is in the air.. and i don't care! hehe.

-banat ng mga single ladies!