pangarap.

ano ba ang mas matimbang? ang matagal mo nang pinapangarap at alam mo namang kaya mong abutin o ang mga tao at sirkumstansyang nagsasabing hindi mo kaya at kulang na ang panahon para makamit ito?

medyo pinanghihinaan na ako ng loob at kailangan ko lang uli ng isang paalala na kaya ko talaga. pero panahon na talaga ang kalaban ko. kaya ko pa ba? pero kailangan ko talagang kayanin kasi sa pamamagitan lang nito ako magiging buo at magiging masaya.. oo alam ko mahirap at dadaan talaga ako sa butas ng karayom pero pag alam mo naman sa sarili mo na ito talaga ang gusto mo, kakayanin mo lahat. marami lang talagang mga tao sa paligid ko ang hindi naniniwala dahil siguro nakikita nila na kahit ako hindi naniniwala sa kakayahan ko pero sana dumating talaga yung oras na mapatunayan ko sa kanila na kaya ko ang mga bagay na akala nila di ko kayang gawin.

kahit na wala pa ako sa stage 1 ng mga pangarap ko, alam ko dadating din ako dun. alam ko mas madali magsalita (o magsulat) kesa gumawa pero hinahanda ko na ang sarili ko sa lahat ng maaaring mangyari, masama man o mabuti. ang tagal-tagal kong inantay at pinangarap ito at ang tagal ko ring binuo ito sa puso ko. ang tagal ko na ring pinapalakas ang loob ko kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na madali lang itong masira kaya ngayon pa lang sobra-sobra ko nang iniipon lahat ng tibay at lakas ng loob para makayanan ko talaga hanggang sa dulo.

have you ever heard of the word FULFILLMENT? that's what i'm trying to achieve that's why i'm in this disposition of my life right now. 

kaya nga etong blog entry na 'to sakto sa lahat ng mga kaguluhan sa isip ko.. ang galing lang ni bianca kasi nahuli niya kung anuman yung mga naiisip ko kaya eto medyo nakaluwang sa dibdib ko.. haaaaay.. let's hold hands soon cuz i will badly need it someday! ♥

12 November 2007

being in our 20s, in the middle of the so-called “quarter life crisis”, my friends and i always find ourselves meeting up for dinner for what we would like to call “life talks”. from getting married and having kids, to working and moving abroad, to career moves, investment plans, our next big getaway, giving back to the community, to faith, hope, love.. yep, that’s a whole lot of “life talks” for me and my friends this year.

life talks part one: on purpose.

my friend rina made sure that i understood.. “remember, every single person in the world has a different thumbprint. there are no two people alike, at all, in the whole world! GoD has a reason for doing that! because each and every one of us has our unique purpose in the world.”

how amazing is that?? it sounds sooo simple, but if you think about it, totoo!!

i remember how our philosophy professor in college told us, “you are everyone you meet in your life”. i so believe in that. every single person we meet in our life is a part of us. whether they were someone we shared our life with, they influenced us in a good way, they hurt us and made us learn a valuable lesson, they were mean and so we vowed not to be mean like them, whether the person wore something we liked, smiled and warmed our heart, made us laugh, or cry, all that, is part of us. and so how can any two people possibly be identical?

imagine. all of us have a unique contribution to the world precisely because of the unique person that we are. we may have our insecurities and shortcomings, but given that, we still have our strengths and good works that we can use to contribute to our family, circle of friends, community, country.

we may not be as goodlooking, rich, educated, famous, influential as other people, but in our less goodlooking, less rich, less educated, less famous, and less influential self, we can touch people’s lives, make a difference in our own little way, and love others big time. that, no one, as in no one, can ever take away from us.

so if you ever feel down.. if you ever feel like you have no purpose in the world.. if you ever feel like asking “will anybody care if i’m gone?” just remember that we are all made uniquely, and whatever effect we've had on the people we love, on the people around us, and on the world, is our effect alone that no one else can replace. we are irreplaceable.

i still don’t know what exactly GoD’s purpose for me is, i’ve felt down, i’ve felt neglected.. after i had this life talk, i told myself that when the low moments hit me, i will remind myself to look at the pattern on my thumb, and take comfort in the fact that i am the only being in the world that has that mark, to make my mark.