lost in thought..

i just watched a korean film (a REALLY tearjerker one, actually) entitled "a millionaire's first love" and i can't help thinking how unfortunate for the main character that she can't be too happy in her life.. she can be happy but will cost her a lot.. her own life! it's pitiful how she can't savor the real emotion she is feeling right at the moment because it is too risky her heart might get burned. i watched it early in the morning and i can't help shedding so much tears, it's too heartbreaking. :( :( :( aww.. 

it made me realize how fortunate majority of the people really are for not suffering that kind of pain.. i, myself, can't imagine supressing my real emotions especially feeling my own happiness to the point that it will cause my heart to be bitter and empty.. i just can't take that.  that's why i am too grateful for the kind of heart God gave me. it's healthy and functions without dangerous restrictions.. but of course i'll just have to take care of every feelings i am going to welcome in there. :P 

anyway, i just think that if we will always hold back all our feelings because it's unsafe to feel too much of everything, we'll all go crazy. imagine yourself being afraid to do things you really wanna do because it might kill you.. isn't it just awesome to just laugh loudly or weep openly without the concern of burning your heart of too much happiness or sadness? that you'll just sit there and relish yourself of what's inside your heart and feeling every possible sentiments you have at the moment.. .

so from now on, i will start making myself savor all the moods and emotions i have at the moment before it became too late for me to feel for anything. tama? tamaaaaaah! :p

live, love, LAUGH, learn, and LOVE more! :)

PS: does someone like jae-kyung sill exists here in our world? and why are movies like that? it makes you believe soooo much in fairytales but end up hurting yourself because we tend to forget that in reality, guys like jae-kyung or jun-pyo are completely and insanely out of this real world... sentimental movies like this make us believe that girls like us can still have her own happily-ever-after without telling us that we only have one-in-a-million chance at getting that.. 

BUT.. we can still try, right?