Hello, September! Good Morning!!

GOD IS SOOOO GOOD!! ♥

every morning, it's my routine to read devotionals like TGIF (today God is first) and ODB (our daily bread) with my bible and it made my faith stronger. as in every morning, i feel so happy knowing that God will guide me the whole day because i started my morning with Him. it's giving me strength to face the challenges of the day. and just this morning, the Holy Spirit literally talked to me through Os Hillman, author of TGIF devotionals. he's the best! my gosh, the TGIF passage goes through my heart. i just died of shame. :p

lately, i've been envious of my friends' jobs.. actually it's been a while since i started becoming dissatisfied with what i do. i'm becoming restless, irritable, and super uninspired because i don't want the boring routines of my life anymore. so today, i knew right away that the TGIF entry is God's way of telling me to stop being tired of waiting for the revelation of His purposes in my life. 

honestly, i am tired of waiting. i am tired of living my life slowly. i want to be free, to explore the world around me, to meet new people, to go to places only i can dream of. but God is still saying "no" and "not yet". so if i have to wait some more, then i will wait..

i like this passage i saw in TGIF this morning:

Do you question if the Holy Spirit is active in your life? The Lord has promised that the Holy Spirit will convict us of sin when we move away from Him. It is His responsibility as our guide. 

and another one i saw in tumbLr:

"When He says “no,” He isn’t withholding good things from us. He’s simply keeping us from going down the wrong path, or accepting less than His best. He’s waiting for the perfect time to give us the perfect gift. On the other side of God’s “no” is always an incredible “yes.” Sometimes you just have to wait for it."

- Gwenn McKone 

God is good all the day of our lives so I'll just have to pray to God that I remain faithful to Him and to His promises. ♥

Happy September, everyone! :)

sunday me time!

sunday has always been my favourite day.. it's the only day in the week where i get to indulge myself of the things i love doing the most. i can be lazy the whole day, eat everything i want, bond with my friends and family, read books, watch movies, and my most favourite of all: watching variety and talk shows on tv. and that's what i did today. :) the WHOLE day. yes, and it made me really happy because i don't have to think, i dont have to conceptualize. i just have to relax and enjoy that one day "buhay baboy" of mine and i had so much fun. :)

last night, i wasn't feeling well. i had a headache and i still had it until morning that's why i didn't go to church (i know, futile reason but really, i don't feel good at all so i'm sorry i didn't go to church. i'm guilty, ok? okay..:p) i just have to explain myself kasi.. oh well, moving on, i got up from bed around ten in the morning. we had konting chika then i watched just go with it again in dvd because it's just so hilarious :) :) then at 12pm, it's my personal joy to watch party pilipinas!! yay. i'm such a fan. :) i really enjoyed the show and i had fun watching. i especially love julie anne san jose's performances. i'm her fan eversince she started but after watching her perform today in the opening prod, my love for her grew really stronger. she's so effortless, she's perfect, and she's really, really beautiful. 3 upbeat songs with a rap performance and she still had the strengh to dance??! wow. as in wow. her performance today really blew me away. i really love her!

check out this performance. di ba ang galing?? i'm such a proud fan. :)

what i also love about today's show is that regine velasquez is live in the pp studio! you know how much i looove her. plus alden richards (my newest crush), oh my gosh he's sooo gwapo. he can be the next aljur abrenica (another love of mine) ;) i just love their performances. i love the energy in party pilipinas and i will always get excited when sunday comes because of this. hay, the show makes me so happy talaga kaya i love sundays all the more! :)

serious stuff.

in between watching party pilipinas, i was watching also the investigative documentary in gma news tv about the sangguniang kabataan issue where i learned that the governemtt is spending 3 billion pesos for the sk funds. what the heck! 3 BILLION PESOS?! where did that go? sa mga pa-liga sa barangay tuwing fiesta? i have a strong opinion about this because i, myself, is a kabataan and i didn't feel that 3 billion at all. wala akong nakikitang proyekto na may tatak sk. it's just so sad because at such an early age, natututo yung mga kabataang leaders na maging corrupt. nagagamit ang leadership ng mga kabataan sa maling paraan. it's just so wrong. i watched there also that some sk officials spent 500,000 for a trip to palawan where they finalize their projects for their barangay. 500k for that trip?? it's too much and i feel fury for that. ginawang business with pleasure ang perang para sana sa mga kabataan. hay naku. trapo in the making. 

so i agree to former senator pimentel that sk has to undergo major reformations, not naman to abolish agad but change lang what's wrong in the system. like the qualifying age, they should be at least 21 to 25 year olds because really, anong magagawang pagbabago ng mga 16, 17 year olds? i'm not underestimating them but kasi nag-aaral pa nga naman sila at hindi naman lahat ng sk officials nasa barangay nila palagi. talagang lahat sila halos wla palagi sa mga barangay nila so how will they know the problems of their kabataan's there? some sk officials only made their presence felt though tarpaulins and it isn't enough because can tarpaulins help in the progress of their barangays? hell, no. so hopefully the aquino administration will do something about it because 3 billion is not a joke, it's really disturbing.

anyway, that's a lengthy opinion of mine and okay, let's move on.. :)

after taking a short nap, it's tv time again! every sunday, i do indulge myself watching tv because i only get to watch tv in weekends so sunday is always tv day for me. maghapon at magdamag talaga yan. ;) anyway, ayun tsismisan time na! my remote is fixed in showbiz central and the buzz but in between also, i watched aljur abrenica in follow the star. because i love him, i watched how he spends his days offcam and i learned so much about him. i saw how he works really hard to achieve that chiseled body and how he likes to really improve his voice. you can say that he's serious in improving his craft and that earned him million points in my heart. naks! he's really into performing so he likes to know what's lacking him and he's attending workshops so he can achieve his many goals in his career and i really like that about him. another thing that made me love him even more is his close relationship with his family. sobrang nakakatuwa how he makes lambing with his father and his siblings. sobra talaga akong natuwa sa kanya. panalo siya sa pamilya kaya siguro ang bait bait at sobrang blessed siya kasi he has a grounded family background and that made him so cute. i love him all the more! i love follow the star kasi ang dami kong natututunan about stars that we don't usually see on tv and i appreciate the genuine approach of the stars in the show. and next week, i'm excited to follow bianca king's life off cam. looking forward to it. :)

at eto na nga.. ang sobrang nagpakilig ng maghapon ko.. ;)

i'm not the biggest fan of toni as a host and actress but as a celebrity in a relationship, isa siya sa mga hinahangaan ko talaga. direk paul is soooo gwapo and toni is one lucky girl. i really find them perfect for each other, they are the best for each other and whenever i saw them on tv, it made me believe once more that true love waits and that even though toni is a hard to get girl, direk paul reallly made the effort to woo her and her family. grabe ang haba lang ng hair niya. and i'd like to believe that it can happen to me also. that even though i'm the worst hard to get girl ever, there will always be that someone who will go out of his way and will make an effort to claim my "yes". di ba? we have to believe in that. ang galing lang kasi you can really feel that they are into each other. i feel so kilig about the two of them and i'm really happy for them. their relationship is so inspiring for me because they keep on saying that God is at the center of their relationship and i'd like my future relationship to be like that also. God-centered and has mature and pure emotions.

hay love. may famous quote nga si sjp tungkol diyan di ba?  "And we were dressed from head to toe in love... the only label that never goes out of style."

i like that. and i love this day because i get to blog again!! yay. i've been uninspired for quite a while and i'm glad to be back. kaya pasensya na, napahaba ang pagka-miss ko sa aking personal life blogging. hopefully more of this this in the coming months. :)

log off na ko, malapit na ang gandang gabi vice eh. another simple sunday guilty pleasure of mine. i'm readying myself for another laugh out loud sunday night.

goodnight! good vibes till tomorrow! :)

In 2012, I'm gonna go back to my 12 year-old-self where I do scrapbooks and stuff. Yes, after 10 years I'm excitedly at it again because I realized you can't hug blog posts and sleep with them because it would be too tiring and stupid to look at. I wanna go back to my childhood where all the sweet memories of my life is kept in a special book and in order to preserve it I have to spend loving amount of hours to cut, collect, and paste all of them in that one special book. I will start collecting stuff I needed for my scrapbooking now.

I'm sooo excited beyond words. ♥

anyway...

THIS is my dream place.

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and THIS is my dream destination.

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Heyy there!

I know I've been missing out a lot these months. Since 2011 arrived, I've been terribly busy and I can never find enough, inspiring time to blog here and for that, I am deeply saddened. I have so many things to share online but my mind is cluttered with so many informations and workload that I can't seem to keep up with the online world. I'm jealous at superbianca cuz she's updating her blogspot regularly. Check here:  http://t.co/sWzXkh4 

I really, really hope to blog all about what happened in my life recently. I miss seeing my thoughts explained here. If you're missing it too, I update my tumblr every now and then when I'm not THAT busy. ► http://christinemargaritte.tumblr.com/

Anyway, I'm having a Harry Potter book-spree again. The ending is so near and I am so excited at the same time nostalgic about how this beautiful thing that happened in our lives will end already. Whew. PLUS my heart is bursting w happiness seeing my collection of DVDs. I'm gonna watch them all soon. Add to that is my many tv series backlog. Hopefully this month I finish them all. I'm so excited to become a couch potato once again, no worries and stress. I am so looking forward watching Gossip Girl seasons 3-4, Vampire Diaries, Glee, Black Swan (I know I know..), I Am Sam, Just Go With It and soo many others! Gosh, I am so behind all these nice films. Shucks. 

It's late already, gonna sleep na. Goodnight, blogspot. I missed you. :)

ps: i love these tweets i saw from superbianca (my icon) 

► is it really human nature to ask yourself, "can i do this?" i mean, how many times in your life do you ask this? and how do you answer it?

► i've always wanted to be someone and be significant and make a mark and make a difference. that still is and will always be my big dream. :)

That is my dream, too! I pray to God I can make a significant change to so many people. I really pray. :)

you will forever stay in our hearts, baby ysrael. ♥

my sister woke me up at around three o'clock in the morning last thursday to say that our baby ysrael is already in heaven.. i was so shocked i went still and burst into painful tears.. it was too soon and we all aren't ready for this. i felt so guilty at that moment because i didn't spend as much time as possible while he was still in our house. i didn't even carry him because i was afraid i might hurt his fragile little body. most of all i was so guilty because i just ignored the text message sent to me by my daddy to pray for baby rael while he's still in the hospital.. i didn't pray for him because i thought it's just a normal kind of sickness. i really believe prayer is powerful that's why when i heard what happened to baby rael, i wish i prayed fast enough that very moment i received the text that God won't take him  from us yet because the whole family is not ready. we're never ready for this kind of situation. 

thankfully, daddy sent another text message that morning saying God has His beautiful plans and He knows all things involving the life of His children.. maybe baby rael's life was cut short because of a purpose. we might not know what purpose it is yet but we're rest assured that there is.

we will forever love you, rael! so sorry that tita didn't take care of you that much while you're still here with us.. sorry also for not carrying you well enough for me to have my own memory of you in my arms. but know always that tita will never forget you and that tita loves you so much.. i promise that i will take care of all your ate's and all your cousins from now on.. i will treasure every moment i will be having with them and i will make it my life purpose to keep all your brothers and sisters from harm.. as long as i live i will give everything to them especially bright future and happier days.

rest in peace, baby rael. i love you. ♥

5 Tips To Be Beautiful

Keep your heart open: Look beyond the masks people wear and see the beauty within them. 

Begin each day with thoughts of gratitude: Appreciate every experience, even the challenges.

Affirm your inner beauty: Make positive statements of affirmation to yourself, Beauty is confidence.

Have a humble heart: Being in service to those in need helps illuminate the bright shiny light within you.

Smile often: Not only will it benefit your health, but it will touch others. Even better, laugh out loud. 

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As I was reflecting today, I felt like I am a much better person than I was last year. I felt like I've changed tremendously. Although I believe it's not a drastic change because I go through process, everything about me now is all new and it's refreshing. It's a happy realization, changing for the better. Of course as you grow older, you become the object of change, you become really better in all the things you do, and I'm just so happy that I can feel this change within me. Emotionally, intelectually, physically. Everything! I can now see beyond all the superficialities in the world. I was reading my past blog posts and it's so amazing what made me write those things! I was only 17 when I started blogging here and based on what I've been writing thorugh the years, I can really see the difference. I mean, there's maturity now for sure, I don't share so many angst in the net as much as I used to. As you can see, I only share the beautiful, the positive, the cheerfulness and I'm spreading happiness! :) Yes, there's still a bit of negativity every now and then but not so much anymore. :)


My last year's entries were all about a confused and somehow depressed me. A lot (or nothing at all?) has been going on at that time. I'm going through a process of rediscovering the sweet joy of being human but at the same time the bitterness of a heartbreak.. :p But it's all water in the bridge now. :) I am in a happy place at the moment. Last year, I partied hard. As in really hard, I admit. :p I decided last year I'm gonna spend the rest of 2010 partying because I deserve it and I wanna experience it, at least. Well, I get the experience that I want but at the end of the year, it made me realize that all the late nights I spent outside were all shallow, vain, useless, and a waste of time. However, I relish those moments because I now know the feeling - and it's a feeling of worthlessness so I'm never going to do that again. At least I already know the difference, I'm not that naiive anymore. Yes. Positivity in everything! :)


But today, I already know what makes me happy and what makes me at peace. I started my year writing down my goals for this year. The summary is that I wanna be fearless, bolder, loving, I wanna live a balanced life, to be cheerful, peaceful, relax, happy, grateful, and faithful. Five months after, I can definitely say with pride that I am achieveing these goals with triumph. :) You know that feeling when you're so happy and secured on the inside that even though your outside world is so chaotic, you seem unfazed? People are wondering why it seems like I don't have any worries, that I still laugh and smile despite all the annoying things that's happening around me. Why would I worry? I have a BIG God! I guess that is also the reason why I glow these days with so much happiness. I've been really faithful in my daily meditation and devotion eversince I started in January. Everyday, I feel like my wisdom and discernment about things increase and I know God made all these things possible. Everyday, I get comfort knowing that He guides my thoughts, my heart, my longings, I felt so blessed and really at peace. :)


Also this year, I decided to go back to one of my very first loves and it's reading books. I'm thankful for this site because it keeps track of my reading history. Only five months since I started reading again, I've gained so much knowldege already! I know reading books also helped me grasp all these wisdom and maturity so fast. It's all so cool! :) I've been reading books the entire time that it's okay now for me to just stay at home and indulge myself in reading but of course since I also want a balanced life, I also have to have a quality bonding time with all my friends and it's always fun and I repeat, I loooove my life right now. :)


SO five years from now.. I don't know what's going to happen or what I wanna do in my life yet. If I wanna go studying or continue working.. It's still a blur to me although yes, it all depends on my decisions (with God as my co-maker, of course), I still can't make up my mind yet. But I wanna study philosophy also cuz I feel like I am going to be a philosopher myself if I'm trained or practiced well. Oh gosh, I really don't know yet. Basically, I'm happy with what's going on in my life right now, this future of mine is the only dillemma and it's a good thing because I know I have to make a change in my life because change is the most permanent thing in the world and for me to not get burned down, I have to really do it - all for the better.

To end this, I recently finished reading The Diary of Anne Frank and I realized I've been ruled by these statements of her all my life.. These words stuck to me because I really, really felt the same and I'm gonna share my thoughts towards her on a separate blog post. 

These are her words:

 "I don't have much in the way of money or worldly possession. I'm not beautiful, intelligent or clever, but I'm happy and I intend to stay that way! I was born happy, I love people, I have a trusting nature and I'd like everyone else to be happy too." 

whatever happened to me this summer.

• okay, it's been a while since i last share what has been going on in my life these days. well, let's start at what happened the first few days of april. our office relocated to a much nicer and fresher environment and i'm happy with where we are right now. new home, new life! still happy as ever. :)

old home:

my new table:

• o: then a very exciting thing happened to me.. gosh! so unexpected.. i didn't know why it happened but oh well, i'm happy.. my heart is healthy. and yes, finally after five years, this is it. :) ♥

• newest inaanak. it was a happy celebration because we were almost complete. we talked about everything - from past, present to future. being with my best friends always gives me a happy feeling because i will always love having life talks with them. i love how they always appreciate my views towards life and how they always boost my morale.. i love all my friends! 

here we are doing literally last-minute shopping for our gifts.. such responsible godparents! haha! :))

• easter sunrise. this is already a yearly activity for me. :) yay! i love going to church early in the morning, even before the sun rises! it's always a blessing and always inspires me to become a much better person because i represent Jesus Christ in all the things i do.. plus He sacrificed His own life for our sins, it's only fitting that we live our lives according to His own will.. He deserves all the praise and glory and it's our sole purpose in life, to bring them all in His feet in exchange to the liberty of knowing and experiencing firsthand His greatest love for us. ♥

• finishing eat, pray, love. i started this first week of march and for the whole month of april, this is the only book that kept me busy. imagine, only one book for two months? yikes.. it was a difficult book to read for me cuz i feel like i'm still too young to read such books. :| but all my reviews and some of my favourite passage will be in another entry. hopefully i get to finish it bilang dalawang buwan ko rin yung pinaghirapan basahin. :p

•   oh, she's amazing! she's crazily nice! haha! she's ma'am cathy and i included her here because just like what i said in my birthday greeting to her in facebook, she's one of the nicest people i know. :) she owns the other unit in our office building and she would always go to our office and make some chika chika.. i made her some birthday sign and she was so happy with it. there's nothing bad with her that's why she looks so young even though she's already in her 40's. bongga di ba? ayy she's so cute and funneh! :p

• royal wedding!!! oh gosh.. it was so kilig!!! grabe, fairy tales still do exist pa rin pala talaga.. haayyy.. kate really is  our generation's princess.. ang ganda ganda niya, sobra! i hope they do live happily ever after. sige na, si kate na ang tumupad ng pangarap nating lahat na mga babae. ♥ :)

• treats for myself overload! ang saya maging babae kahit na nga ang gastos! haha! 

• and finally, my upcat woes. haay. pano ba to? my due's until June 30 na lang. :| to go or not to go, that is the question.. i don't wanna plan on my own anymore. i lift all these things to You, Lord. You know what's best for me. :)

So this is what happened to me on the first month of summer. Nothing much. Couch potato pa din ako. :| Hopefully, I get to to go to the beach this summer bilang kelangan ko nang ma-detoxify lahat ng free radicals sa balat ko! Or pwede din sa swimming pool na lang. Gusto ko lang mag-swim dahil ang init, init na talaga!


Praying for a more exciting second part of my summer. Please, Lord. :)