napapagod na ako!


hay.. puro na lang hayy.. ambot ah! wala lang.. naiisip ko lang kasi na parang sobrang bata ko lang para mag-act as matured.. na parang hindi na ako nakakapahinga and i don't have time na for myself.. i really wanted to rest but never had the time.. "burnout" - that's what i really feel! ganun na lang ng ganun ang routine ko sa maghapon and i don't like this kind of system! i admit i'm not happy with what's going on in my life and i really can't help it! :(

gusto ko nang umuwi ng Rizal pero pa'no?! ang hirap naman.. it's true nga pala na "be careful with what we wish for because it might actually come true".. ang wish ko nga naman talaga is to have a work agad at nung nagkaron, i became restless naman..

siguro ganito lang talaga pag nag-aadjust pa.. i just hope and pray na maka-survive ako dito..
"kakayanin ko to.. :0"

graduate na kami! :)

so anong feeling ko? maLungkot ako.. super! masaya din ako xmpre pero andun pa din yung lungkot.. until now kasi madami akong nami-miss at mami-miss pa.. senti mode ako ha? :( hayy.. pero ganun talaga ang buhay.. we all have to live with it since life is a cycle.. how I wish bata pa rin ako para hindi ko pa alam yung mga feelings na katulad ng mga ganito kasi ang hirap eh! Sobrang nahihirapan ako and it's so disturbing..

the 13 years of school life is amazing.. it was really a learning experience for me and it molded me as who I am right now.. I really appreciated naman the life I lived up with and it’s a nice feeling bracing another phase of my life.. I just hope I can live up to the expectation of the outside world.. now that I already have a work, I’m quite enjoying this one but somehow it's kinda tiring and I haven’t rested yet since I graduated! Whoo.. but it’s ok.. I am one of the lucky few na nagkatrabaho agad without even graduating yet..

basta, I’m thankful na din talaga.. pero like what I’ve said nga na hindi mo rin talaga maiaalis sa akin ang malungkot since for a long time bago lang naging makulay ang mundo ko because of ”somethings” tapos mag-e-end lang agad ng ganun? Wow.. di ko pa nga na-prepare ung heart ko sa heart attack tapos umatake na agad! Di man lang ako hinintay na makahanap ng gamot!.. hay buhay nga naman.. I’m recovering, though.. trying to move on with the help of busying myself..

precious memories in multimedia life at STI will always be remembered.. and treasured.. hay.. my very fragile heart is again for how many times?? Is being disturbed again and again and again..

update!update!!
wala ako sa mood nung grad ball naming.. yung smile sa mga pictures? Peke un.. di naman halata db? Because I am a perfect hider of my true self.. wow.. how deep! Heehee.. ang astig ng mga pics namin noh?! galing..

I will just.. you know, think back always the happy memories me and my classmates have shared.. kahit na nga nakakainis din sila minsan, still they had a big part in my life.. hmm.. buti na lang marami kaming pics together plus the videos pa so when I look back, madami akong memorabilias na magagamit.. enough na yun! For me to cry my heart out? Asus.. ayus naman nun!

Basta, yun lang.. bahala na si Batman!

“KAYA Q 2!

_aja.. :)

here's our pics pala.. :)

"i already have a work!.. my gosh.."

this is it! this is the moment.. and a time for me to shine..
such a long time since i wrote my last post and i miss blogging! so here i am again..

what happened in my life the past weeks? hmm.. nag-rush kami ng lahat ng requirements for graduation and thank GoD finished na lahat.. but i enjoyed naman the moments i spent with my classmates rushing for everything.. saya! although may mga frustrating moments din naman akong na-feel last, last week..

anyways, like what i've said, unbelievable but true.. :)
di pa ako graduate and yet i already have a work! bongga! hehe.. i'm thankful on what's happening in my life and i still can't believe it! wow.. as in wow..

i still have to thank GoD for everything HE has done for me.. for guiding me all throughout my life esp. those times where I am alone and starting to have a life of my own without my family and ever since I never felt that He left my side that's why I am not just grateful but touched as well by the amazing GoD I'm trusting my life with..

that's all for now.. i will still prepare our pics to post in here so just wait for them..

i am now ready to face the global professional world because i believe "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHICH STRENGTHENS ME.."

i am already a graduating student!

kaya cguro di na aq magkandatuto sa paggawa ng mga projects.. oh my gosh! heLp me.. nakakainis naman.. magiging incomplete pa ata aq.. ayoko mang isipin pero kasi ang hirap eh! my gosh.. it's my first time na ma-incomplete! sa finals na pa mandin.. kakainis!

anyways, bout our last week, hmmm.. it's a very good week.. a beautiful one.. :p sobrang inspired nga ako nun eh! i'm sure that's one of the rare moments na mamimiss ko kasi it's one of a kind activity here in our school na magkakasundo at buo-buo kaming STI'ers.. ang cute! National Job Placement week namin and we wore a not so "corporate attire" :) kaming mga girls di naman nagpaka-ayos pero yung mga boys ng STI, wow! as in wow! rare occassion taLaga na makikita ko siLang nakaganun.. kakatuwa nga eh!

and.. basta! siguro naman nasi-sense mo na yung mga nafi-feel ko nowadays and actually, i really don't want to end these moments.. beautiful moments..

i will treat you na as my other sis ha? kasi di ko na maasikaso si other sis.. high tech na din daw ako eh! :) anyways, i have this new "apple of the aye" but hanggang akin na lang yun eh! and inside the vicinity of our house, di na makakalabas.. waah! i don't want to forget those moments! i don't want to end these times but we have to move on and start a new phase in our lives.. i just hope and wish we're still the smae DMA's..

you know what? i really have this inner turbulence, an inner battle for me to not let myself get hurt again and to handle this fragile feeling inside of me very carefully.. i hope i can do it..

basta, i don't want to think about the things that lets me down.. i just want to focus on how am i going to enjoy the remaining days of pagiging "koLehiyala" and how to connect to my other classmates whom i'm going to miss.. :)

hayzz..

gudLuck to everybody!




pics namin nung Job Placement Week:

i am deliriously happy..
i love the feeling..
i am inspired..
i felt so complete..
i am accepted..
i am appreciated..
i love my self..
i love the people around me..

thanks GoD for everything! :)

i'm happy again! :)


i'm so inspired that's why eto, ang sipag kong mag-bLogs.. ICT week pa din and I'm deliriously happy kasi nga ang saya-saya ng grupo!! i have so many pics and videos saved and i can start already my documentary with the whole group! ang masaya pa, nanalo na ang isang DMA sa contest and I'm happy for neiL.. :) waLa Lang, gaLing! taz and cute pa ng napanood namin, "Italian Job".. grabe, ang astig! don't worry i'LL let you all peek to what's happening sa amin this week pag na-edit ko na.. basta ang dami-dami kc namin sa STI and then magkakasundo kami.. my gosh! i'm surely gonna miss all of these moments..

huhu! ayoko pa sanang isipin ang graduation kaya lang napapagod na din akong mag-aral eh! hehe.. eniwiez, feeling ko nga 1 week na akong nakatira dito sa school kasi from 8 am to 6 pm dito lang ako! wowss..

like more pictures? here they come..

masaya ang heart ko.. :)

according to bianca,masaya maging masaya and i agree to that.. personally, the state of my heart now is reaLLy happy and it's radiating. It's just an overwhelming feeling because after months, weeks, and late nights of sleeping to finish the requirements and projects, I'm getting there.. I'm at the top of it all and it seems like everything is unstoppable now in my life.. I felt so stable, so secure, and yes, happy.. it's a rare moment for me so I want to feel the best of it.. aLam mo yung feeling na happy ka because certain people recognize you as you are and appreciated you because of who you are! db, ang cute? :)

Today is our ICT week and I compete for two categories and encoding is so... i can't find the exact words for it pero nakakabaliw taLaga siya! hayzz.. On the other hand, I'm proud of myself for writing 994 word-essay na akin lang taLaga.. Own concept and own ideas.. I didn't expect that I'll come up with that composition where in it's on the spot! thank GoD, He never left my side.. ThankYou so much, LoRd! manaLo, mataLo, I will be happy knowing na GoD didn't left me hanging.

Hoping for a better competition tomorrow! :) Weeh. wish us Luck.. and then next week, job pLacement week na.. sana maging successful and this happiness I am experiencing as of this moment will continue so that I can shine even brighter and soar as high as I can..





HAPPY day to all!!