reinvent yourself!

i just did! :)

almost pixie cut, anyone? yaaay.. ready for the holidays! ★  will post the "look" maybe next week. :) because i strongly believe that reinventing your look every now and then gives you that kind of high that makes you feel so young and hip. plus it's so refreshing!

let's do this! all of us! ♥

and... i just wanna share that all the signs that i asked were given yesterday. :) plus for the first time, after almost 5 years of attending in PPFBC, i've attended prayer meeting because last night was the church's thanksgiving celebration. it was a 4-hour marathon! although i'm not complaining. :) it's just that i was a "little" shocked. chos! but it was really a meaningful night. :)

i look forward to more meaningful nights with Him~ ♥

ps: depression that I'm anticipating because of my health condition is not up yet. hopefully it never comes back anymore. please! :p

i'm afraid.. :(

gosh.. what's happening? what happened to me? i am again to enter in a medication process that will truly devastate my disposition in life once more.. i'm gonna start tomorrow and i'm already depressed of what i will be going through again.

the sleepless nights, confusion, dizziness, headache, tiredness, the negative feeling and much worse: the sudden weight gain. :( oh no, i don't wanna go through that again but it's inevitable and that i really have to.. i will also face the fears of long term side effects of all these.. :( ayoko na.. :(

ang dami ko pa namang nababasa na puro positive things online and yet wala akong maramdamang joy and optimism because of this dilemma. but... if this is God's way of reminding me that He is our God and He is our all-knowing and all-loving God, i will submit to His sovereignty. i just really pray that this Christmas, i'll be okay na.. no more pains and depressions please!


so for one week or more, expect a very gloomy and depressed version of me.. but bear in mind that i really don't like that kind of mood and attitude but things that are out of my control is overriding my emotions and i have no choice but continue with the medication no matter how much i hate this one. :(


haaaay.. to end this post, let me share something i saw in tumbLr, swakto lang sa nafi-feel ko ngayon..

... and this!

"She is out there. My Cinderella. She is real. She exists. I pray for her constantly. May God satisfy the desires of her heart, draw her close, consume her. May He claim her passions, her identity, her refuge, her hopes, her strengths and weaknesses, every fiber of her being. May she treasure and cherish her Savior more than anything of this world and cling to His will with every ounce of her stamina. By all that she is, does, and strives to be, may He draw near to her and she to Him."

- Adam Young (aka Owl City)  (via maddyinchrist)

(Source: 250wordsmith, via princessofpeace) 

Christmas outfit predicament turned life evaluation (again)

Pag nagsha-shop ako ng clothes at nagustuhan ko pagkakita ko tapos sinubukan ko nang isuot sa bahay, hindi na bumabagay! Like nari-realize ko na lang na ang pangit sa akin or hindi bagay at nasasabi ko na lang, ang baduy ko talaga pumili ng damit para sa akin! :p

Seriously, I don't know what really looks good on me that's why I don't buy dress or clothes for me because I know lang na it will be an epic fail. :| Buti na lang I have my mother, sisters, aunts, and girlfriends to guide me in buying clothes for me. Better yet, I can easily grab their clothes that I like. So much easier. :) 

So this is what I wanna wear on Christmas celebration. Simple lang pero sana ma-achieve at ma-pull-off ko ng maayos. :)

That's the reason for this post. I wanna change for the better this coming new year and I will start in my appearance/clothes to wear. Tama na ang pagiging lackluster. Na-achieve ko na yung "bahala na" attitude this year. I will now start planning what I really want to see myself 10 to 20 years from now and that change will start in 5... 4... 3... 2... 

i've been feeling low today.. early in the morning? yes. :(

i'm down and i don't like this feeling but i've learned something from bea that you don't have to always show to everyone that you're always okay even if you're not, and that you have to acknowledge your feelings every now and then.. because i have this tendency to just bottle up all my feelings even though it's been killing me that's why in the end, ako din yung nahihirapan. :(

i had a good(?) cry last night and so many questions were raised in my head and i don't wanna think anymore because it's giving me pain and disappointments lang. :/ but somehow it made me realize that i needed change (and that i have to change) if i really wanna make a difference in my life. haaaaay.. what a way to start my december. sobrang positive pa naman ako sa buwan na 'to.. oh december, please be good to me. :p

i'm listening to gary v. right now, i just wanna listen to inspirational songs because i have to be inspired.. i feel really sad today.

i lift all these feelings to You, Lord.. please take all these burdens in my heart because i really can't make it without You.

to somehow lift my spirit, i wanna share this lyrics from my favourite jaci velasquez: 

There are days when I feel

The best of me is ready to begin.

Then there're days when I feel

Im letting go and soaring on the wind.

Cause I've learned in laughter or in pain

How to survive.

I get on my knees, I get on my knees;

There I am before the love that changes me.

See I don't know how, but there's powr

When I'm on my knees.

//edit: saw this on twitter:


Gotta love the days when all you gotta do is to walkout from your door while thanking God for everything. ♥ 

November is a month to remember. ◕‿✿

face lift!!!

at the end of each day, sometimes when my heart gets broken or heavy for the reasons i can't explain, here are the things that give me instant face lift.. as in it never fails to bring back the good mood i will always have:

1. mani and pedi at salon - it gives me instant comfort because i love polishing my nails! i always love looking at my colored nails, it instantly brightens up my mood that's why a schedule to the salon is one of my must-haves. :)

or homemade mani-pedi session. :) i love that.. it's sooo relaxing!

2. facial/diamond peel - woww.. as in woww.. all the stresses you accumulated for the past months will suddenly vanish away! i recently had that and maaan, was it heavenly! grabe lang. 2 hours of massaging your face, wow.. gives you instant boost! the years of ignoring the importance of taking care of my skin has been paid off.. i feel like my skin loves me more! :)

3. shoes!!!!!!! - who doesn't love shoes?! i am one of the girls all over the world who are so obsessed with shoes.. you know how they say "beautiful shoes take you to beautiful places"? it stucked on me ever since that's why i always save just for my shoe splurges.. it's my only reward for all the puyat i have because of my work.. if it makes you feel good and better, why not di ba? no matter how badly bruised i am, shoe shopping never fails to put me in a good disposition once more. i sooo love it! ♥

4. arrival of my new lipsticks - this is what i'm looking forward to everytime, whenever i see new catalouges and then i saw all these beautiful shades of red and pink.. wow again.. :) i'm one of the girls who love red lippies. it gives me instant bright glow and no matter how gloomy i was, it gives me beautiful result that why if i feel ugly, i will just apply red lipstick and the trace of ugliness is quickly gone! naks! haha.. really, red lips produces miracle for my face. ♥

5. shopping for new nail polish and headbands - i love funky colors. i love funky designs. i don't wanna be traditional because it's booooring. :p i'm a big fan of Blaire that's why as much as possible i also wanna have those beautiful head pieces that she wears everytime kahit the cheapest version lang. haha! sa nail polish, i don't like boring colors, gusto ko yung mga papansin lang cuz it's cute tingnan. haha! waley lang! :p sobra lang akong naliligayahan whenever i shop for these things that i love. ♥

6. arrival of my favourite magazine: candy and yes - i always look forward to that at the end of each month. as i have always been sharing nga. :p

7. catching up my favourite tv shows.. :) it can easily make my mind wander from reality. :) and i just love laughing my a** off because of all those hilarious shows. :)) yes, you got it right, i loooove funny shows/movies because i will always love being happy and joyful.. :)


Let's all stay happy! ♥

...just a repost from one of my favourite bloggers, SAAB! :)

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Beauty All Around

Posted on November 17, 2010 by Saab

In grade school, Unpretty by TLC was our anthem

In high school, Christina Aguilera’s Beautiful empowered us

Sugababes’ Ugly came out when I entered college

I don’t know why but I cried when I saw Katy Perry’s Firework video

Forget your scars, acne and cellulite. Everyone needs a reminder that we all have something inside of us that Adobe Photoshop can’t manipulate hehe <3